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"Family Ties"Written By: t-shirt Disclaimer: Gundam Wing and its characters are
copyright to Sunrise, Bandai, Sotsu Agency, and associated parties.
I make no money with this fic. Rating: NC 17 Warnings: AU/Incest (sort of), Angst, mild lemon,
masturbation, borderline NCS, apparent incest Pairings: 1x2, 3x4, 5x13 Summary: Two brothers discover they have more
in common than a talent for piloting Gundam’s over the years. However,
their growing intimacy complicates things until they learn the truth
of their origins. " Family Ties"
Ch 2 Three weeks after I arrived at the academy I still hadn’t unpacked my clothes. Duo called me every night leaving message after message until I finally just started deleting them without listening. I had to put some distance between us but it was even harder without the sound of his voice. Another week passed before I broke and let the answering machine play. “Hey, Bro. Guess what? Hilde said Sylvia’s been asking about you. Yeah, yeah I know, you’re not into her but you never know, things might change down the road huh? Relena had a fit when she found out you left early but I already told you that. Course, I have no idea if you’re even listening so no harm saying it again.” His laugher warmed my heart even though it sounded strained and forced. “Dad’s been on my case pretty heavy since you left. I think he’s got empty nest syndrome or something ‘cause he’s been pushing me to finish my academic credits. It’s your damn fault; if you weren’t so damn perfect I wouldn’t have so much to live up to.” The laugh this time wasn’t so forced but it made me miss him all the more. “It’s really quiet around here without you.” My chest swelled in the pause between words. “Too quiet… makes it easy to think about…” The heat flashed down my spine as I recalled the feeling of his body wrapped around mine. “But you don’t wanna think about that, right?” he laughed and I wanted so badly to hold him because it was not a happy sound. “That’s why you left.” There was another pregnant pause in which I decided I was going to need a cold shower after the call as visions of his impassioned face danced in my mind. “I think… I might ask… Hilde to go steady.” My hand was on the receiver before I even realized what I was doing. “Duo!?” “She seems pretty serious about me.” It was a recording. I had completely forgotten in my desperation to preempt his plans. “We almost went all the way. Isn’t that a kicker?” I was on the last two digits of our home number before it suddenly occurred to me that this was a good thing. He was moving on, turning his attention to someone more suitable, someone he could actually have a future with. “She sort of freaked out when I couldn’t do it.” I felt numb all over. “So I told her it was because I’m a virgin.” I barely heard his laugher that time as my vision narrowed to a small point on the far wall. “It’s sort of the truth huh? I’ve never been with a girl, right?” His voice rang in my ears, the sound of his gasps and hissing breath, the heat of his body engulfing me. “Just you,” he said softly and I picked up the phone again and set it back down. “Sorry… but I can’t stop thinking about it. How you touched me… you’re hands were so damn hot…” I couldn’t breath. “I still don’t get why we couldn’t just enjoy it. I mean we’ve been doing that sort of thing since we were kids. It’s not like we’re gay or something. I like girls, it’s just so comfortable with you, ya know? I don’t think they made up the incest rules for guys anyway.” He sounded so petulant I had to laugh. “That shit’s just to keep freaky babies from being born and we’re not about to have that problem. How would Mom and Dad even know if we weren’t even living with them? You never know, I might end up marrying Hilde…” “Hiiro?” “Duo?!” When had I dialed the phone? “Hey!” he smiled and my mind painted in the picture as something let go in my chest and I felt a great tension simply bleed away. “Finally decided to call me back huh?” “I shouldn’t have…” “Whoa! Wait, you wanted to so you did, right? Or… did you want to talk to Mom?” He sounded so uncertain. “No… I … got your message.” “Oh. Sorry, man. I was just rambling. I didn’t think you were listening to them.” “I wasn’t.” Why did everything that came out of my mouth sound so stupid? “I mean I haven’t been…” “Chill, man,” he laughed and I envisioned him curling up at the end of the couch. “I get it. So how’s dorm life? Anyone tried to bend you over yet?” He has a way of turning even the most awkward situations into something comically sublime and I soon found myself telling him all about my first few weeks. It was like old times again for a while until our tongues got tired and he dropped the random comment… “I miss you.” I didn’t know what to say because I instantly wished I could reach through the phone and gather him in my arms. “Duo.” “Hn?” “About Hilde…” “She turned me down.” I’m afraid the relief was evident even over the phone. “Said she wanted someone who loved her first. Guess being the girlfriend of a Gundam pilot isn’t all that appealing. Can’t blame her though, it would make going to the movies together sort of a challenge. Did Wufei arrive yet?” “Registration doesn’t start till the end of next week,” I reminded him. “I should drop by and see if he needs any help getting packed up.” “I think he would appreciate that.” “You realize,” he grinned because I could hear the playfulness in his tone. “We never changed his sheets.” Oh shit. I didn’t even have to groan for him to burst out laughing at me. “R… relax, man,” he giggled. “I took the rap. He thinks I took some chick to his place.” I wasn’t sure I liked that much better. We’ve known Wufei since we all started training together. He is not a forgiving sort but like most everyone else, he has a soft spot where Duo is concerned. He only lives in his apartment part time and to be honest I really don’t know why he even bothers to keep one in the city. His home is in China so I guess he needs a place to stay when he’s here but still, he could live like a king at the Chinese embassy. He practically is one anyway. Duo totally rearranged my entire thought pattern with seven words. “Wish I could’ve told him the truth.” “What!?” “Keep your panties on, I didn’t,” he laughed. “Damn it, Duo!” “Well, what is so damn terrible?” “We’re brothers!” “I still don’t get why that matters,” he grumbled and I just wanted to scream but he left me suddenly devoid of any feeling at all when he added, “It’s just sex.” “No,” I evenly intoned, shutting out the enormous pain that was trying to turn me inside out. “It’s not,” I told him before quietly hanging up. It was the essence of the problem. It wasn’t just sex for me. I had truly fallen in love with him… so long ago. I cannot recall a time in my life that he was not the most important person to me. Simply being near him brings me great joy and contentment but all that ended as my desire for him grew. I was not content to merely be his brother anymore. I wanted more. More of something it was not my right to claim. I didn’t hear from him again until he showed up with Dad at registration. “What do you mean you’re enrolling?!?” I couldn’t believe it. “Wasn’t much to do with you gone but study,” he grinned and I felt my stomach sink into my shoes. “I’ve never seen him so focused,” Dad smiled proudly but it was overshadowed by the waggling of the brow’s Duo was aiming my way. “Will you be staying in the dorms?” “I’ll bunk with him.” “NO!” I barked, scaring the attendant girl into retreating. “I mean…” “You’ve shared a room all your life,” Dad reasoned. “Why would there be a problem now?” It was his expectant stare as much as Duo’s cocky grin that made me back off. “Fine.” “This’ll be a blast,” Duo chirped, going so far as to latch onto my shoulders. Not an uncommon habit of his but at that point it felt indecently intimate to me. “You are not here to have fun,” Father reminded him. “Can’t help it,” he smiled, adding a distracted, “Holy shit,” when he spied an aerial photo of the training field. “Is that it? It’s so small.” Father shook his head in his affectionate way whenever dealing with Duo and turned his attention to me while my brother inspected the photo more closely. “He is as competitive as ever,” he smiled. “Once you left we couldn’t drag him away from the books.” “He’s used to getting what he wants,” I commented quietly as my mind supplied images of what it was he apparently wanted this time. “Yes,” he agreed but his tone of voice told me there was more. “But I wonder if his dependence on you isn’t holding him back. Everything he does seems to be in direct response to your own path.” “Not everything.” I knew it wasn’t true when I said it but I was feeling defensive all of a sudden. His eyes took on this far away look as he watched Duo measure out the length of the field and walk his fingers around it like they were a mini Gundam. “Sometimes I think he’s still dealing with some separation anxiety.” “I’ve only been gone a month,” I pointed out but he didn’t seem to hear me. “No matter,” he said, suddenly patting me on the shoulder. “You’ll both do well, I’m sure, no matter the circumstance.” I couldn’t say I really felt his confidence. The job was easy enough but dealing with Duo was an entirely different matter. He even made me help him carry his bags to my room. “Duo.” “What?” “What are you doing?” “Changing,” he smiled and that nagging heat in the pit of my stomach flared as I dropped his bag and he dropped his pants. “Go in the bathroom,” I grumbled, turning my eyes away. “Why?” he grinned and I knew from the sound alone he had slipped his boxers off and was standing behind me completely naked. “It’s nothing you haven’t rolled around in before.” “Duo,” I groaned. “Why don’t you just give in now and save us the headache,” he purred, laying his body along my back and I had to grit my teeth not to turn around and take him in my arms. “Think about it,” he breathed into my ear, sending a hot prickling along my skin. “We could have it all.” My powers to reason against him were already failing as his hands slipped around my waist and down my hips. We couldn’t have what I wanted. “Look,” I told him, holding his wrists as I turned to face him. “If you insist on staying here then fine, but you stay as my brother, nothing more.” “That’s not what you want,” he smiled coyly, stepping into me to press his hips against the rise in my jeans as he purred, “I can feel it.” “Stop it!” I barked, all but tossing him back on the bed because one more moment would have had me following him down. “No more games! I told you this isn’t what I want!” “Could’ve fooled me,” he replied petulantly. “This means nothing!” I snapped, indicating my dwindling erection. “Yeah, it felt good but that doesn’t make it right, Duo! We should never have started playing those games and now it’s over! You get that? No more!” “All right, already,” he grumbled, waving me off. “Geez, relax. I was only fooling around.” “You’re going to drive me insane,” I sighed, dropping down on my own bunk. I understood the breadth of the cross I was to bear when he smiled and replied, “Stark raving mad.” I needed some air so I went to open the window and paused, the frown creasing my brow drawing Duo closer, where he took the opportunity to lay his nude body along my back. “What’s up?” he asked, peering down into the courtyard. “Hey, Wufei made it after all.” Indeed, our Chinese partner was standing below conversing with our Father. They knew each other of course, Father was familiar with all the pilots but it was only Wufei he spared any private time to speak to. However, I had bigger problems to contend with. I love my brother with all my heart and soul but I was ready to kill him before the end of the week. No matter how vehemently I protested, he refused to stop parading around in the nude, left the bathroom door open when he showered and used every pretense he could find to brush against me as often as possible. I was ready to pull my damn hair out but there wasn’t much I could do outside of moving off campus, something I seriously considered one night in the early morning hours when he decided to play dirty. I had been sleeping, not the most contented sleep I have ever known but dozing peacefully when the sultry sound of his deep throated moan rose into the air. I knew what he was doing without having to look but my eyes refused to remain shut, the heat flash flooding my body when I beheld his slender body lying in the low light, his hand slowing pumping beneath the sheet. Gods, I wanted him so bad but I wanted him, all of him. I wanted the right to call him my lover, to hold him when he needed me too and not just when the door was closed. To take his hand and show everyone how proud I was that he had chosen me over all others but the truth was he hadn’t. I was convenient, nothing more. This fact did not stop my crotch from swelling nor my heart from beating against my ribs as he pushed the sheet down and I watched him bring himself to fruition. I was going to need a very cold shower in the morning and had to bite my inner cheek so hard I tasted the blood to keep from rising to go to him but it wouldn’t have gained me what I truly desired. Nothing could. “Always feels better when you do it for me,” he sighed softly and I tensed at the knowledge that he knew I was awake. “S…save it for the shower,” I choked and he laughed at me, knowing my face was burning as he wiped off and pulled his sheet back up before quietly asking… “Where’s the fun in that?” Two day’s later I woke with him in my bed. “Duo?!” I gasped, blinking the blinding heat out of my eyes as my hips thrust hungrily into his hand. “Don’t stop,” he begged and it was the truth in the passion of his tone that made me roll him over and kiss him as the rush overtook my body, leaving me trembling where I lay. “Damn it,” I breathed on a shuddering sigh. “I told you…” “I miss you.” He wasn’t playing fair but I got up and left him in my bed while I took a shower and cooled off. I have no idea how long he had been molesting me in my sleep but from the way my climax had overwhelmed me when I woke I imagine it had been a while. He’s damn good at being sneaky. He was gone when I returned, which left me feeling very strange but I was just as happy not to have to confront him about it just then anyway. However, something had changed that morning. Something I didn’t really grasp the extent of until I went home later that night. I had spent most of the day on the training field running through maneuvers with the new cadets. After the mornings events I wasn’t all that keen on rushing back to our room in the first place but there was no putting it off any longer. We needed to talk but I hadn’t factored in the maddening complexity that is Duo. “Duo?” “WH…!? Y…you said he wouldn’t be back till late!” I froze, my mouth dropping open as a young girl I had seen Duo spending some time with during classes jumped from his bed clasping her discarded shirt to her amble bosom as she rocketed out the door. “You’re timing sucks,” was all he had to say. I stood helplessly in the middle of the floor looking down at his half naked form as my vision narrowed and I was slowly overcome by rage. I have fought against demons, lain waist to organizations that sell humans like cattle and killed men with my bare hands yet I had never known a fury like the one that settled in my heart upon seeing Duo with another. The girl had been half undressed; he lay before me, his shirt discarded and pants unfastened and I knew if I hadn’t shown up they would have gone all the way and suddenly all that mattered in the world was what I wanted. “Hiiro?” he gasped as I stepped forward. At any other time I would have stopped to reassure him but such was my rage that I didn’t care if I was frightening him. “What the fuck was that?” I spat, jerking the covers completely off the bed. “What in the hell is your problem?” he countered bravely but he was backing up against the wall. “You intended to fuck her right here in our room?!” “Isn’t that what you wanted?!” he growled. “For me to get my kicks somewhere else!” “It’s just kicks to you isn’t it?!” I roared and suddenly had a hold of him. “Hiiro!? W…wait!…. Jesus!” He was scared. Scared of what he had done, of what we had become and what I might do but there was no sympathy inside me. I stripped him of his remaining clothes without a single thought for his comfort. “Wait! H…Hiiro!” His cries fell upon deaf ears as I forced him onto his stomach. “It’s just sex right?” I ground out, freeing myself. I should have been appalled by the thick, solidity of my condition but at the time all that registered was how easy it was going to make the task. “Hiiro! Come on, man. Not like this,” he begged hissing as my thumb rounded his ass and entered. He could have fought much harder, I knew that even then but it wasn’t that far from what he wanted. The only down side was my disconnection from the reality of it. I would understand later that it was his concern for my state of mind that made him beg for mercy. “You wanna get your kicks?” I hissed as the rage forced my hands to open his body. “Fine! I’ll give you what you want!” I couldn’t stop myself even though he screamed into the pillow as I brutally slammed inside him. “Just remember one thing,” I told him, leaning over his quivering form and he shivered way down, deep inside when I proclaimed, “You’re ass is mine.” It was a good thing he had that pillow because he shouted himself hoarse before I was done with him. I didn’t know I could reach that sort of ferocious fury when it came to Duo. Usually, all I wanted was to give him as much loving pleasure as I could but it wasn’t about feeling good that time. It was about ownership and proclamation, possessive control and the intimate rights of lovers. All the things we were never supposed to feel together but I poured them into him as freely as all the frustration he had inflicted upon me bled away. I truly did not realize the depth of what had happened until it was over and he lay staring blankly up at me. “I’m… sorry,” I told him for lack of anything better to offer. I couldn’t believe I had just raped my own bother. “I think I understand,” he replied and for the first time I thought perhaps he really did. “Are you ok?” Damn it! How could I have lost it like that? “Tender,” he chuckled, trying to ease my guilt but it didn’t help much. “Your voice is raw,” I commented, reaching out to rub it gently and he smiled. “It’ll heal.” “Don’t bring girls in here to sleep with,” came out of my mouth but I was just as surprised by the command as Duo. The tension eased when he nodded his agreement. “Probably not one of my better ideas,” he sighed, closing his eyes under the tender caress of my fingertips on his neck. “Then why?” His skin is so soft. Not like mine at all. “Thought it might make you jealous,” he laughed. “Well, it worked,” I sort of snapped, letting my fingers wrap firmly around his throat as I rose above him. “I don’t like it when other people touch you,” I told him, knowing it was the closest I had ever come to confessing my true feelings for him. “Well,” he grinned and I let my hand relax and brush along his jaw line. “As long as my ass is yours there won’t be any reason for them to.” He was serious, I knew that by the expression in his eyes but I still didn’t think he really comprehended the place we were in. “All right,” I agreed, ignoring the way he beamed at me. “I’ll play along as long as you’re mine alone.” I am not a fool; I knew very well he had won again. “Good,” he smiled, wrapping long arms around my neck and I knew we were not done for the night. “Cause quite honestly I couldn’t have gotten it up for that chick if I had an air pump.” “And me?” I laughed, giving into the urge to kiss the corner of his mouth. “See for yourself,” he smiled so I did. He tried to repay me for my enthusiasm the first time but his passion was no match for my fury. I did end up ripping the pillow though and he prided himself on the duration. I refused to take him again knowing he was… tender from before but that didn’t stop us from enjoying our reunion. I had no idea what was going to happen if anyone ever found out but it was becoming less and less important every time I kissed him. The following morning the situation had drastically changed.
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