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"Occupation "Written By: t-shirt Disclaimer: Gundam Wing and its characters are
copyright to Sunrise, Bandai, Sotsu Agency, and associated parties.
I make no money with this fic. Rating: NC 17 Warnings: AU/Get Together Fic, Mild angst, attempted
NCS, mention of gang rape (not the guys) Pairings: 1x2 Summary: "Occupation " Part 2
“Can I help you?” a young woman asked peeking uncertainly out the door. Her eyes flicked down my body taking in the neat uniform and I took a deep breath and tried to ignore the disapproval in her gaze. “I need something to wear to a …party,” I informed her not seeming to sure about the label. “Is it formal?” was her first question while she retreated so I could enter. “No.” The short reply seemed to confuse her a little but I was more interested in looking over the shops inventory. “What is this material?” I asked selecting a smooth, medium blue button down from a rack. “That’s Egyptian cotton,” she explained. “It wears very well but I’m afraid it’s rather high priced.” “Would you consider this a decent color for me?” I asked holding the iridescent shirt up to my chest. She paused a moment then smiled and replied confidently, “Definitely.” “I will require pants,” I stated turning to look at myself in a mirror. “Perhaps a nice pair of jeans would dress down the shirt?” she suggested indicating a rack of said garment. I looked through them for a time then selected a denim blue pair that looked comfortable. It felt so odd to be wearing something besides my uniform but I wasn’t uneasy in the outfit. It sparked something deep in my psyche that begged to explore this feeling of individuality. “A jacket would round it out,” the sales clerk smiled offering me a denim jacket that was cut at the waist and fell about my shoulders as if it had been tailored to fit. “I’ll take it,” I informed her allowing her to put my uniform in a bag while I wore the clothes out of the shop and discovered my life had just changed drastically. Gone were the hesitant glances and fearful avoidance. People smiled when he walked by going so far as to invite me into their shops and restaurants. One woman even propositioned me for a meal but I had no interest in keeping her company. It was like walking around in a different world. I even began to feel some kinship with the pedestrians who meandered along the streets smiling for no apparent reason while my steps took on a life of their own. Reality didn’t rear its ugly head until I rounded a corner and came upon a couple of young boys who were being harassed by a soldier I wasn’t familiar with. Whoever the man was he was getting a big kick out of frightening them accusing them of disrespecting him in some way. I’d come in on the tail end of the incident and watched quietly while the soldier reprimanded them then sent them on their way. His dark eyes rounded on me once they were gone but I retreated uncertain of why until I reasoned that I just didn’t want to be a soldier that day. ** “Wow! You look great!” Duo beamed stepping back inside the busy Gilmore lobby. “The parties already pretty hot,” he told me guiding me through the overspill of patrons who were happily drinking, laughing and even dancing in the antechamber. “What do you want to drink?” he asked leading me to a small bar along the wall once we entered the main ballroom. “I don’t drink.” Duo stared dumbfounded for a moment then snorted a laugh. “You really need to learn to lighten up,” he chuckled holding up two fingers to the bartender. “Is it always this loud?” I asked taking the offered drink in spite of my inexperience with spirits. “Have a couple of those and it won’t seem so bad,” Duo laughed gulping half his drink at once. “Come on!” he smiled taking my wrist and dragging me into the crowd. “Hey! Hilde!” “Duo!” she sang springing on him and I suddenly felt as if he’d rather be somewhere else. “Where’d you go?” “This is Hiiro,” he shouted over the music. She looked at me blearily for a moment then her eyes went round and she sucked in a huge breath in preparation for what we would never know because Duo slapped a hand over her mouth. “Yeah,” he said glancing apologetically at me. “But he saved us so be nice.” “Duo!” she growled prying his hand off. “Who’s your friend?” I took one look at the voluptuous woman and stepped back. “Hiiro,” Duo introduced eyeing me cautiously. “Would you like to dance…Hiiro?” she asked smiling smartly from behind her glass. “No, thank you,” I replied curtly. “Let’s find a seat,” Duo shouted over the music flashing the woman an unsteady glance while he tugged me away. “Man,” he chuckled quickly snagging a loveseat along the wall when a couple abandoned it to go get a drink. “You must be crazy. Noin doesn’t shake it with just anybody. Don’t you like girls?” he laughed eyeing the beautiful woman across the room. “Beautiful women have been the cause of more than one war,” I explained. “Only because men will do anything to possess them,” he grinned but it sort of slid off while I peered cautiously around the room, sipped my drink and replied, “Precisely.” We sat quietly for a time while I looked around and drained my glass and Duo watched me then he smiled and shook his head. “What are you thinking about?” he asked curiously. I snorted almost blowing my drink out of my nose and making Duo laugh. “Honestly?” I asked chuckling at myself while I wiped droplets from my jacket. “I was counting available exits.” “Why?” he chortled polishing off his drink. “It helps keep me alive,” I replied missing it when his expression stalled. He stared just long enough for me to turn a curious eyes on him then smiled and leaned forward, his face passing dangerously close to mine when he reached for my glass and said, “You don’t have to worry about that tonight.” He paused when the glass refused to budge daring to turn and look into my eyes while I countered, “In this world a night without caution is merely a good night to die.” “Hiiro?” he breathed suddenly caught in a sticky web. “You should be more careful,” I told him slowly drawing him in and he gasped when our lips touched. It was the most decadent thing I’d ever experienced. The way he melted in my arms excited me in ways I’d never dared dream of before. My heart raced with the thrill of knowing I’d been accepted, the realization that I wanted to hold him and his wiliness to allow it instilled in me a fire that instantly consumed me. “Wait,” he rasped trying to push away but I shifted making it impossible for him to go far. “We can’t.” The world slowly solidified, the blaring musing overpowering the rushing sound in my ears and I finally relented letting him sit up and shake it off. “Sorry,” I was compelled to offer feeling odd over my actions. I had no intention of harming him but I couldn’t deny that what I wanted wasn’t too far from what those men had tried to take. “It’s alright,” he smiled dopily and my heart skipped a beat. “Can we go somewhere else?” I asked unable to quail my growing desire. “I barely know you,” he chuckled making me shy away. It was true but I wanted him so badly I hadn’t thought about it being inappropriate. “Can we take a walk or something then?” I asked impatient to get on with the courtship. “All right,” he smiled pulling me to my feet. I followed him outside feeling as if I’d stepped into some other dimension. The world looked so different from a civilian’s point of view and having Duo’s hand in mine made it seem just that much more surreal. The Gilmore was built along a river so we took a stroll on the river walk and talked for awhile. It was so odd but even the most inane subjects seemed fascinating when mulled over from his point of view. “…should see the dogwood in the spring,” he was saying. “They line the riverbank,” he explained pointing to a likely example but I couldn’t draw my eyes away from him to look. “When the sky is clear,” he smiled turning eyes upon me I felt inexorably captured by, “the stars almost look as if their swimming in the water.” He paused to consider the strange light in my eyes before I stepped forward and kissed him, my body shivering in the heat caused by the little moan that escaped his throat but then he was pulling away and glancing around nervously. I realized belatedly that it was because we were both male and resigned myself to greater discretion. I went home that night questioning my chosen path for the first time. He obviously loved the people of his town, knew the history and treasured its lore yet there was little he could do about our transgression and the changes it would bring about. The local police didn’t even have control anymore; they were required to report any disturbance to us so any thought of resistance could be thoroughly exterminated. It occurred to me while I wandered the base taking in the weapons and utensils of war that there was another way to look at our occupation. Oppression wasn’t a foreign idea in my mind but somehow I had allowed myself to slip on the blinders of indifference and become the means by which these people could be enslaved. There wasn’t much I could do about it though so I turned in and let my mind dwell on more pleasant thoughts. Duo had agreed to accompany me to a movie and though I wasn’t really interested in the film spending time with him had become important to me. He apparently found it funny because he kept snickering between bits of popcorn and I felt the thrill of a promising future when he let me kiss him. We were strolling in the park afterwards enjoying the cool night breeze when I was confronted by the ugly reality of our predicament. “No!” My head turned with Duo’s concerned for the anguished cry and I felt him tense with fury at the same moment my stomach sank. “Shut up!” I had to grip Duo’s arm to keep him from rushing forward when Lieutenant Bail slapped his young companion hard across the face. She struggled when he pushed her into a recess along a maintenance building and crushed her into the wall laying a brutal kiss on her whimpering lips while his hands quickly dove under her skirt. “Let go!” Duo growled trying to wrench his arm free but the fear that he’d end up where she was or worse made me force him in the opposite direction until we were hidden behind a clump of trees. “We can’t just let him…!” he snarled still trying to free himself but I was so terrified of what would happen to him in lock up I couldn’t let go. “Stop it!” I snapped forcing his hands to his side. “She’s probably a hooker!” I reasoned having seen her questionable attire. “Most of them do it because they’re forced too!” he spat, his eyes flashing when the girl let go a muffled scream. “Damn it!” I exclaimed wanting so much to ease his pain but what could I do? The assailant was a lieutenant in my direct line of command. I took orders from him every day but as I watched him prepare to violate the squirming girl I began to wonder why. “Hey!” he shouted since he couldn’t go to her aid but she screamed just at the right time to hide his outburst while my heart did a back flip. “Shut up unless you’d like to take her place!” I growled clamping him in my arms with a hand over his mouth. He tried to bite me but I’m not that easy to manipulate. The girl had stopped fighting for the most part which was bad and my mind quickly worked out that if I didn’t do something Duo would never forgive me. “Stay!” I ordered forcing him to the ground while I pulled my pistol, the sight of which made his eyes grow wide with fear but it shifted to astonishment when I leveled the weapon and carefully took aim. Someone’s sports car was sacrificed to the cause when I shot the gas tank causing it to explode in a fiery ball while Duo sat staring in wide wonder. “Come on!” I snapped snatching him from the ground to beat a path in the opposite direction glancing back to confirm that Lieutenant Bail had abandoned his conquest in favor of investigating the mayhem in the street. She looked ok though rumpled and was more concerned with the burning car than her attacker by then so I dragged Duo out of there and hoped the bullet had been melted beyond any chance of recognition. “Damn it,” I sighed dropping into my favorite easy chair the moment we were safely behind closed doors. I didn’t live that far from where the incident had occurred so it was the fastest, safest place I could think of. “You’re seriously insane,” he chuckled plopping into the couch beside me. “And you have a death wish,” I countered sobering his levity. “You have no idea what they would have done to you if you’d been arrested.” “Yes,” he said with a conviction that made my heart sick with sorrow, “I do.” “They caught you,” I surmised feeling the pain saturate my soul as my eyes slipped shut. I was mightily relieved when he replied with a quiet, “No.” I questioned him with a glance and he sighed heavily. “I had a friend,” he explained. “He was arrested a couple of months ago. Public intoxication,” he snorted looking off in the distance. “He didn’t even drink.” “Where is he now?” He was quiet long enough that I wasn’t really surprised when he replied, “Sunrise Cemetery.” Damn. “I broke in and stole his body before they could burn him.” It would be standard procedure to cover their crimes. “Those…monsters,” he snarled going red in the face, “gang raped him to death.” I had heard of parties held by the officers where young citizens were offered up like slabs of meat to whoever wanted a bite but it never occurred to me that it actually took place. They were just rumors until I saw the pure rage in Duo’s eyes. What had I become a part of? “I’m sorry,” I was compelled to offer wiping my hands over my tired eyes. “You’re different,” he said making me pause to consider him but the soft smile on his lips wiped my thoughts clean. “You saved me,” he said rising to come to me. “And you stopped that man tonight,” he surmised sending my blood rushing to my lap when he eased into it, his shapely legs spreading to straddle my thighs while my hands came up to grip the roundness of his ass. “Duo,” I warned fearing the weakness he so easily stirred inside me. “I wish you could come to the rally with me,” he breathed laying his long body against mine and my pulse throbbed with anticipation. “What rally?” Gods, he was so hot! I couldn’t keep my hands off of him. “Just a plea for peace,” he sighed covering my mouth with his own. I forgot the conversation for a minute while he baked me in his heat and I discovered the sublime feeling of being allowed to touch his skin when my hands roamed up the back of his shirt. “It’s this Saturday,” he panted rolling around on my lap, his breath hissing inward when my fingers found their way down the back of his jeans. “I’ll be in Crestview,” I explained though I couldn’t have gone even if I hadn’t been working. We were technically on opposite sides of the equation. He kissed me then and the feel of it shifted confirming my greatest desire was about to be fulfilled. I wanted him in the worse way but having never experienced the feeling of loving another I was inclined to take it slow. Suddenly I understood why I’d never reacted favorably to a woman’s caress when all he had to do was breath my name and my blood boiled. “Nnnng,” he groaned when I took him in hand, his hips rotating sensuously while I pushed his jeans down and worked my way toward something I wasn’t entirely sure about but I knew I wanted it. I wanted it so bad I lurched upward kissing him hard when he gulped as I invaded him, the sultry heat of his body calling to me while I worked him until he suddenly shook in my arms and lay panting against my chest. “Hiiro?” he gasped when I stood with him in my arms and headed for the bedroom. “Wait,” he breathed but I couldn’t, I wouldn’t. I needed him so badly it was all I could do to keep from ripping his clothes when I tore them off. “Ah…damn,” he groaned when I rose above him. The uncertainty in his eyes made me pause but the fire was still burning deep in their depths so I kissed him laying my weight on him and chased his insecurities away. By the time my preparations were finished he was writhing beneath me and begging for more so I gave it to him. I couldn’t believe how hot it was inside him or the thrill that coursed through me when he trembled and shook. My name was like sweet ambrosia on his lips, his arms a sticky web I never wanted to be free of. He opened to me as naturally as the sunrise and I did my best to welcome him giving into his temptation as many times as he would allow. When the dawn came I was amused with the idea that I still wanted him even though he was exhausted and still damp, his beautiful eyes closed softly in light slumber while I lay gazing adoringly at his gentle face. Breakfast was a quiet affair as he seemed as moved by our night together as I. He fed me bits of melon while I smiled stupidly and thanked the stars I’d gotten the chance to know him. He couldn’t stay with me however, as his friend Hilde needed his help so we said goodbye with the promise of having dinner together in the coming week. My off time was over for awhile which meant I was forced to return to my office and don a uniform I no longer had any respect for. It amazed me that I’d let it go on for so long, turning a blind eye while young men and women were abused and murdered. I was disgusted with it all but it wasn’t as easy as just quitting. I belonged to the military, a pawn for their use and they didn’t like it when their servants started questioning their orders. The trip to Crestview was a run of the mill assignment but it would take a couple of days. Once in the quarter the men were required to go on bivouac giving them a chance to catch up on new training exercises. I was enlisted to aid in this endeavor that week but dreaded the usual grind. My mind was still on Duo which made me wonder about the future. My heart had pinned itself to him in a most permanent fashion but he wasn’t safe in my world and I certainly couldn’t just walk away from mine. It was a problem I was forced to set aside however, when the camp was attacked on the second day. It had been completely unexpected ending with the loss of many of the new recruits. We had heard rumors that the people of Lowbridge were harboring weapons of mass destruction but there had been no evidence of such until we were faced with the very real presence of a massive, demon shaped war machine that nearly wiped us from the face of the planet. I was able to deter it using my superior marksman ranking to send missals into strategic points of the suit until it was forced to retreat but it had laid waist to most of the camp by then. I had no idea the significance of the battle until I sat in debriefing after it was over. “This is the very reason our presence here is so important!” General Septum growled. “We don’t even know who it was fighting for,” General Treize countered and though I wasn’t of the opinion he was any better than the rest he appeared to have the people’s best interest at heart. “It must have been sent by the resistance,” Septum insisted. “Or perhaps,” Une, Treize’s first officer, smoothly intoned, “The people of Lowbridge have grown weary of sharing their town.” “There’s no way Lowbridge could have known,” Septum countered smugly. “They are a peaceful people who are grateful for our protection.” I bit my tongue swallowing the sickness that rose in my throat because I knew through the grapevine that he was one of the most reprehensible degenerates that stained out ranks. His reputation was such that I wouldn’t have been shocked to learn that he was in some way personally responsible for the death of Duo’s friend. “There must have been a leak,” Une reasoned. “Maybe one of your men let it slip in a weak moment,” she suggested eyeing Septum as if he were a cockroach but the conversation was lost to me when a bell resounded in my head. ”I’ll be in Crestview.” The confession resounded in my mind. I had told Duo where I would be and though I hadn’t elaborated on the why it would be easy enough for a resistance to learn of a large training exercise. Had I unknowingly given our position away? “Hiiro?” “Sir?” I replied realizing I had drifted off. “Have you anything more to add?” Treize asked looking me over as if he could smell my fear. “No, sir,” I replied burying the sinking feeling deep. ** The first thing I did upon my return was find and tail Duo. I didn’t want to believe it but it took less than a day to discover he had deceived me. Sally, the shop owner, was fronting a covert resistance that I was appalled to find went several layers deep. There was no way they had set up an operation that extensive in the short time we had occupied their land. Whatever the brass was after I knew by instinct alone these were the people that held it. “We should strike now,” Sally was saying intent on maximizing the effect of the recent attack on Crestview. “It’s too soon,” Duo countered. “They know about the Gundam, now. We can’t risk it.” “But they’re confused,” she countered. “All we have to do is…” “If you feel the supply route that important, by all means, attack it,” a short man with a cane interjected. His body was so scared and deformed with cybernetic parts I wasn’t sure if he was really human for a moment. “But the Gundam will remain hidden for now.” “Why!?” she exclaimed. “We could end this occupation if only you’d…” “He’s right.” I ignored the gasps, glares and weapons suddenly pointed my way remaining perfectly still where I had leaned against the wall. “If you attack with the Gundam again so quickly they’ll destroy it.” “Hiiro,” Duo breathed flushing red from head to toe before his eyes set determinedly. “Who are you!?” Sally demanded then gasped when she recognized me. “What do you want here?!” “It doesn’t matter,” I replied pushing off the wall. “I’ve decided to help you.” I felt the impact of the statement in Duo’s body but he remained silently still. “What can you offer us?” the old cyborg asked intelligently. “I have intelligence that will prove vital to your cause,” I explained shifting my gaze to Duo when I commented, “As you well know.” Sally’s gaze flickered to him as well taking in the suddenly ashen quality of his skin. “How can we trust him?” she asked stepping forward. “He’s one of them.” “Not anymore,” I told them. “Hiiro,” Duo finally broke moving toward me but something in my gaze stopped him cold. “I knew you were different,” he smiled nervously. “Thank you. I know we can…” “Do not assume my decision is contingent on your tender favors,” I interjected coolly ignoring the shadow that passed through his eyes. “Duo?” Sally interjected. “Hitting the supply route will not stop the introduction of weapons,” I informed them. “However,” I said turning from Duo’s pale face to address his commander. “There is a spaceport in Leidenham that is essential to the flow.” “Doctor, you can’t possibly…” Sally began but… “Set it up,” Duo cut in and I suddenly realized he was the pilot of the Gundam. “I’ll be at Hilde’s.” “But, Duo…!” “Saturday night,” I suggested then left them to start my new life. I went back to my apartment and picked up what I needed then trashed the place leaving a blood trail from a cut I slit in my arm to throw my superiors off the scent. Hopefully they would consider me dead but I couldn’t rule out the possibility that once we hit the spaceport they wouldn’t figure out it was me that was pulling the strings. It hurt so much that Duo had betrayed me but I hadn’t made my decision based on my feelings for him. It was time to take back my identity and do what I was born to do. Protect the people. In the first week we had stopped the influx of new weapons, armament and recruits. Nothing went in or out of Lowbridge without our approval and I was highly impressed with Duo’s skills as a pilot. He was as fierce as any warrior I had ever known but his eyes shown with a righteous light that would never allow the same sort of depravity I had witness in my peers. I tried so hard to forget him, I knew he had betrayed me willingly and fought the pain of knowing I meant nothing to him but I still couldn’t stop my eyes from following him or my heart from aching for his touch. “Hiiro?” “What is it?” I replied not bothering to turn around and address Sally directly. “What’s going on with you and Duo?” she asked curtly and I chuckled internally. “He’s been out of sorts since you joined,” she commented expectantly. When she received no answer she sighed and tried again. “I don’t know what happened between you two but he’s out there every day fighting for what we believe in. The least you could do is offer him a kind word…” “He knew what he was doing,” I cut her off. “What’s that supposed to mean?” she snipped. “If you wouldn’t treat him so coldly…” “He used me!” I snapped rounding on her and she took two steps back and held her chest. I took one look at her aghast expression and walked away. He was the one that used me! He seduced me to extort information out of me! He betrayed me! I couldn’t stand it anymore and headed straight for Hilde’s. “Hiiro?” she breathed moving out of my way when I pushed past her. “Where’s Duo?” “In the yard.” I left her finding him under the hood of a junk car, his eyes narrowing cautiously when I approached but their color bled away when I simply demanded, “Why!?” I saw the resignation in his eyes but it was clouded by confusion and guilt. A fact that made my heart stutter hopefully because where there was guilt there was a desire for restitution. “I never meant to hurt you,” he said studying the engine he’d been working on. “It wasn’t supposed to be like that.” “Then why?” I couldn’t stop the expectation that bubbled inside me. “I don’t know,” he sighed confessing, “I’ve never been with anyone like that before. I don’t know why it was you,” he said turning his gaze to meet mine. “Do you feel anything for me?” I asked unable to stop my feet from moving forward. He looked frightened for a moment then took a deep breath and nodded his head. “Ever since we met,” he told me. “Even the night you saved me… there was just something…Hiiro?” It was the last sound he would utter before I claimed him as my own. “Hiiro?” he gasped but I wanted more and sealed his lips. “Unnnnnng…we can’t,” he panted while I sat him on the car and got to work on his clothes. “Not here.” I came back down enough to recognize that we were in the middle of the yard in broad daylight and relented. “Sorry,” I told him unable to back away more than an inch. “What’s this all about?” he asked trying to catch his breath. “I love you,” I told him meaning it with every fiber of my being. “But you said…” “It has nothing to do with what side you’re on,” I explained taking his face in my hands. “I love you…all I need to hear is that you want me too.” “Yes,” he smiled and I felt my heart take wing. We ousted the occupation in less than a month. In another Septum was dead and Treize had taken control of seventy five percent of the remaining military forces. I was asked to head the rebellion but my skills are more applicable in the cockpit so Duo and I have become the strong arm of the people. Once we had proven it was possible to take back what they had lost hope spread like wildfire across the land and the people rose up reclaiming city after city until freedom shone like a new dime in each and every heart. “Nnn, I don’t think that’s legal,” Duo chuckled lazily while we played a game of go on the foot of our bed. “It’s a common strategy,” I countered smirking when his eyes drifted closed while I continued to caress his inner thigh with my toes. “Frequent,” he corrected getting lost in the current moving between us. “But not so common,” he smiled laying back to stretch out while he spread his legs and I almost choked. No matter how many times I touched him it was never enough and he drew me in like a moth to a flame. I smiled when he moaned softly as I crawled over him and kissed him warmly, our game completely forgotten and thanked the stars that our skills had almost become unnecessary. The willingness of the people to stand up and demand their rights had made us obsolete and I couldn’t have been happier about it. All I wanted was to love him, to hold him and watch him grow and change. He had helped me rediscover my purpose and given me the means to make a difference but what I cherished the most was the fact that he had also given me the greatest treasure of all. His heart. owari :)
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