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"Forever Lost"Written By: t-shirt Disclaimer: Gundam Wing and its characters are
copyright to Sunrise, Bandai, Sotsu Agency, and associated parties.
I make no money with this fic. Rating: NC 17 Warnings: AU/Romantic Adventure, Angst, fluff,
mild lemon Pairings: 1x2 Summary: When a lone soldier finds himself stranded with his enemy he discovers the road to peace sometimes leads through the wilderness of the heart. "Forever Lost" Ch 2
He was strong and dependable but tended to fly off the handle which was displayed one day when a spore hound got close enough to injure my thigh and Hiiro summarily crushed its skull barehanded. I’d never seen that sort of rage in a Japon before, not even when we were in the thick of battle but couldn’t deny the divine enlightenment of being humbled by the fact that he’d done it for me. We made love for a very long time that day and spent the evening doting over each other. It was up to me to keep him from throwing himself in the fire more often than not. It seemed like he was forever getting himself in one mess after another but I didn’t figure it out for awhile. At first I thought he was just thick headed or bat shit crazy because he kept pulling stunts like using himself as bait for the hoppers but after awhile I realized he was doing it to show off. I started rewarding him for smaller, less dangerous things after that and the crazy stunts slowly eased off. We had put six months behind us when the unthinkable happened late one sunny afternoon while we were foraging for fruits and vegetables in the forest. My heart almost leaped out my mouth when I heard the tell tale sound of an approaching ion engine and I saw the question in my mind in Hiiro’s suddenly animated expression. He didn’t seem to know what face to show me then we both looked up and my chest tightened with fear while we watched a Japon fighter zoom by. There was no doubt they knew we were there since their suits were equipped with superior hardware. They probably knew how fast my heart was beating when Hiiro broke and jerked me by the arm leading me deep into the heart of the forest. We didn’t stop until the fighter had circled back around and he shoved me into a small hallow in a thicket which was when I figured out he meant to leave me there. “NO!” I hissed gripping him tightly while tears stung at my eyes. “Stay!” he hissed looking over his shoulder in the direction the fighter had gone but I didn’t understand and the terror of being left behind alone outweighed the fear of being captured. “Please!” I pleaded low unwilling to jeopardize his safety as well as my own. “Don’t leave me!” He was almost as frantic as I was and lunged forward to kiss me soundly before he looked me dead in the eye and commanded, “Trust me!” Then he was gone and I was too scared to break cover because there were two of his kin emerging from the other side of the clearing. I had learned enough of his language to understand that they were his subordinates in some way because they showed him a great deal of respect. When questioned about the presence of another he got snippy with them claiming their instruments must have malfunctioned and though I could tell they didn’t believe him they weren’t willing to call him on it then my entire world imploded while I watched them walk away. I didn’t know how to feel or what to do until I saw the fighter lift into the sky and head for breakaway then I burst forth desperate to follow but there was no way. He was gone and I was left all alone. Depression set in pretty quickly but my desperation to find a way off the moon overshadowed it. However, I didn’t find much of use in his things and the parts he’d taken from my suit weren’t enough to repair his. We’d tried many times to make something work and failed but I couldn’t stop myself from trying again. I worked on it day and night for over a week before reality set in and I realized I was stranded alone with no way of escape. ”Trust me.” His words came back to me time and again haunting my sleep and waking hours alike but though I knew he didn’t want to leave me sometimes things don’t go as planned. I imagined all sorts of things from his being found out and imprisoned or even killed for helping me to their ship having been attacked on the way out by my peers and destroyed so it was a monumental relief when I heard the sound of an engine early one morning while I was resetting the hopper trap. “Hiiro!” I gasped having been unable to hide myself when I saw him. He was coming out of a transport that probably housed a mobile suit in the cargo bay and there were three Japon soldiers behind him but he was smiling as bright as the sun and opening his arms so I flew into them as fast as I could. “You came back,” I breathed holding him tight enough to bruise but he was wrapped firmly around me as well. “Hai,” he breathed and I felt the relief in him break free. “Sorry,” he offered easing off enough to wipe the moisture from the corner of my eye. “What happened?” I asked considering the way the soldiers were averting their eyes “Long story,” he chuckled then kissed me so softly I almost forgot our company. He took me away right that moment leaving what remained of our beginning to the spore hounds. I expected to be imprisoned but was allowed to stay by Hiiro’s side which gave him an opportunity to explain that he was no mere grunt like myself. There were only about twenty thousand Japon though one of them was easily a match for a regiment of naturals making them a realistic threat to the citizens of Earth. However, because of their limited numbers they were hopelessly dependent upon protocol each following orders even unto the death and Hiiro just happened to be the man in charge. “You what?” I deadpanned unable to believe what he was telling me. “We surrender,” he smiled seeming quite content with the fact while he nibbled on my fingers. “Why?” I breathed both in awe of the event as well at the fact that he was giving me a woody. He just smiled and kissed me and my head almost exploded. “For me!?” I gasped totally rocked off kilter that he would do that. “Us,” he corrected gazing at me with such calm felicity I settled in spite of myself. “Isn’t that a betrayal of your people?” I grumbled but couldn’t muster up the anger I should have felt over it. “No,” he chuckled pulling me closer. “We were wrong,” he explained kissing my hand again which sent a hot flash down my spine. “You are good,” he surmised including my peers in is assessment of me. “We will show them we are good too.” “They’re afraid of you,” I reminded him. “But we have much to offer,” he countered backing it up by sending a hot flash all over my body while he nibbled my ear and neck. He had a point. Naturals were easy to scare but if it meant there was something in it they wanted it wouldn’t be hard to gain their trust. I might have had a problem with it if I’d never met Hiiro but he’d shown me that the Japon weren’t the arrogant supremists we thought them to be. Even the soldiers that attended him were kind in the extreme though their gentle ways were overshadowed by an inner strength I knew could be a formidable force when antagonized. He took me to their lead ship where I was welcomed instantly as his mate. It was incredible how easily his people took me into their hearts but they seemed to trust him implicitly and he was so obviously head over heals in love it just stood to reason. Their eagerness to care for me and make me feel at home unsettled me for awhile until I started to comprehend taking over Earth was never their goal. They were children of the Earth and no matter now far removed they longed for a place to return to. We denied them that basic right because we feared their power and superior strength but with Hiiro’s help and conviction they had come to a place where they were willing to prove their worth and earn their right to return home. I’m nobody special to the cause but when the leaders of Earth discovered the head of the Japon had taken an Earthling lover things got a little hairy for awhile. It took some time but I managed to convince them that I was there of my own free will which went a long way to endearing the Japon as a race to the masses on the ground. They had surrendered but kept their independent standing setting their ships in an acceptable orbit that would serve as their base while they were slowly integrated into the ground population. I missed Earth but being anywhere without Hiiro wasn’t an option for me anymore. Fortunately, because of Hiiro’s status we spent time on the ground negotiating and bartering for ground time for the Japon. The naturals were skeptical at first but once they learned of the Japon’s willingness to share technology they eased off in favor of gaining what knowledge they could. Hiiro’s people were restricted in many ways because of their superior strength but that also eased off over time when their gentle nature was discovered. They could be as fierce as lions when provoked though, so it was necessary to segregate them from the masses unless strictly supervised. Nothing had turned out the way either of us thought it would but we were happy with how things were going. I certainly never thought being stranded on a random moon would lead to a peace treaty and the eventual acceptance that he and his people belonged with us. They were the children of our ancestors and had every right to live their lives enjoying the richness that Mother Earth had to offer. “What is it?” Hiiro asked having caught onto my melancholy mood while we gazed out the large window that was set in the well of our cabin aboard his ship. I looked out at the Earth in all her magnificent glory set so brilliantly against the velvet black sky and sighed drawing his arms around my still cooling body. “I wonder,” I mused closing my eyes when his breath warmed the tender skin of my neck. “What might have happened if we hadn’t met on that moon.” He laughed which made me curious enough to turn to face him but it didn’t help enlighten me. “What?” I chuckled not getting the joke. “I’m glad I stayed,” he smiled leaning in to kiss me but the comment set uneasily in my mind and I pushed him away. “What’s that supposed to mean?” I asked while my suspicions grew when his eyes reflected a guilty conscience. “Actually,” he said seeing that I wasn’t going to relent until I got an explanation. “I went in search of your suit when you crashed on the moon.” “You weren’t shot down like me?” I asked realizing I had assumed he had without ever asking. “No,” he replied scratching at the back of his head nervously which prompted me to sit up while he confessed, “I went in to neutralize survivors,” he confessed adding when my eyes went cross, “But when I saw you…I couldn’t.” “What about your suit?!” I snipped growing angrier by the moment. He was reluctant to answer but the hound doggish quality of his eyes helped keep me from smacking him when he revealed, “I…disabled it.” “You…!!” I gasped growling when he nabbed my wrists and buried me beneath him in our bed. “We could have left anytime!” I grumbled turning my head to deny him the kiss he wanted. “Yes,” he said nibbling my neck in lieu of my mouth. “But…you were there,” he smiled gazing down on me with such adoration my anger bled away. “And all that awaited us was a war I was no longer willing to fight.” “Because of me?” I asked stunned by the very idea. “Because you proved naturals weren’t the heartless monsters we thought they were,” he explained kissing the corner of my mouth which never failed to send a tremor coursing through me. “And,” he smiled pressing the weight of his increasingly excited hips into mine, “That you needed us.” “I need you,” I agreed on a wisp of air that fanned the flames in his eyes. I understood what he was saying, that all human beings need each other no matter what their differences might be. They were sent into the farthest reaches of space to become the epitome of what mankind could be only to discover what they wanted most was to be with their kin. Hiiro was perfect in every way, he was strong, good and brave but he had discovered the same thing I did on that lonely, little moon. Without each other we were incomplete. “Hiiro,” I gasped when he joined us together again and all at once I felt whole because he was as close to me as he could possibly get. He was inside me, moving within my blood and embedded in my heart and I knew as I gazed up at him in all his magnificent glory what I’d found was something more precious than all the treasures in the universe. I was there between the sapphire stripes of his eyes wandering the landscape of his mind, so deep within him I could feel his heartbeat and breathe the rapturous embrace of his soul and I knew with unequivocal certainty whatever happened, wherever we went and whoever we became I would be forever lost in his beautiful eyes. owari :)
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