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"Koi(bito) Pond"Written By: t-shirt Disclaimer: Gundam Wing and its characters are
copyright to Sunrise, Bandai, Sotsu Agency, and associated parties.
I make no money with this fic. Rating: R Warnings: Fluff, light angst, non graphic lemon,
A/U Get Together Ficlet Pairings: 1x2, background 3x4, 5+all "Koi(bito) Pond" I have a mild affliction. *WHAM!* “Hiiro? Are you all right?” Relena asked staring uncertainly at her dazed companion. “Fine,” he grimaced flashing me an irritated glance while he held the knot appearing on his forehead. There’s no reason for me to feel guilty over his inability to walk through a door properly but I did anyway. “He’s still playing it straight?” Wufei smirked taking my lunch tray from me as I was still staring dumbly at the exit. “He is straight,” I reminded him sitting down to fidget grumpily with my food. “Then why is he bouncing off the door?” he laughed. “He’s just confused,” I sighed. “Or maybe he likes the way you look in gym shorts,” he grinned but I wasn’t in the mood. “I should never have told him,” I grumbled rolling a potato from one side of my plate to the other. “Now we can’t even talk to each other.” “You’ve been best friends since grade school,” Quatre smiled allowing Trowa to seat him. “He’ll come around.” “He’s not the one with the problem,” I replied leaving my tray while I stood and left. They didn’t get it. It took less than five minutes to mangle what had become the most important relationship of my life. I still couldn’t comprehend what came over me. Why did I do it? Why couldn’t I have just kept my feelings quietly suppressed? It had been almost two weeks since my awkward confession and Hiiro hadn’t been able to say two words to me since. I wished I could just go back and do it all over because as hard as it was to hide it from him everyday it was better than his being absent from my life. “…could come by.” Relena? “Daddy won’t be home till late,” she purred and I couldn’t stop myself from peering around the corner, my heart speeding up while my eyes went wide when I saw her moving closer to his mouth. I beat a path out of there as fast as I could trying desperately to keep my heart from shattering. I’d lost him completely; his friendship, his support and his heart were never mine to claim in the first place. How could I offer him friendship when my heart longed for so much more? I took some effort and many hours of looking out over our town from the school’s roof but I finally realized maybe it was for the best. Somehow I’d move on with my life and spare myself the misery of having to watch him move on with his without me. However, my resolve was shaken at every turn. It seemed no matter where I went he was there somehow. School was a given since we had most of our classes together but he also turned up at basketball practice. That wasn’t so strange since he had been on the team until they asked him to help coach instead but he wasn’t known for attending regularly so it was unnerving that he kept showing up every day. I couldn’t shake the feeling that he was watching me but whenever I dared to look his eyes were always steadfastly trained somewhere else. It was difficult to keep my distance as years of past acquaintance demanded I fall back on the familiar and find a way to his side but Relena had taken up my place. She’d always had it bad for Hiiro and though I could relate to her feelings it sort of made my stomach hurt to see them together so I tried to avoid looking. “You should just rape him and get it over with,” Wufei laughed after practice one day and my face lit on fire before I could bury it in my locker. “Leave him alone,” Quatre grumbled glancing at the way Hiiro was ignoring us. “Well, this is getting them nowhere,” Wufei groused tossing his shoes in his locker a little too hard. “Just go over there and grab him by the ears and…” *slam!* “Duo!” Quatre called after me and I imagined the glare he leveled on Wufei while I escaped was formidable because I caught his comment of… “What? I miss his smile,” before the door shut. Had I quit smiling? It was a revelation because I’m known as sort of the class clown but when I thought about it I couldn’t deny it. I hadn’t felt the urge to laugh since the day I confessed. It hurt so much to think of being close to Hiiro knowing he didn’t feel the way I wanted him too but had come to a point I couldn’t deny my need. He was everything to me and though it pained me to see him with someone else, to know the longing inside me would forever go unfulfilled I knew things couldn’t stay the way they were. ** “Duo?” Quatre’s concern was mirrored in Trowa’s eyes when I didn’t stop to sit with them at lunch the next day choosing to mosey over and settle beside our reluctant partner. Hiiro always sat with us in the past but since our talk he’d taken to sitting alone. An endeavor that inevitably ended with Relena joining him since no one else was brave enough to chance his deadly glare. I’d always thought of her as a bit ditsy since he never showed an interest before but lately he wasn’t as eager to distance himself. She hadn’t arrived yet though so I took advantage of his solitude and tried to keep the butterflies in my stomach from fluttering too much. A glance his way revealed that his ears had turned red and I wondered at the depth of his anger because he was glaring at his mashed potatoes as if they’d wronged him in a most heinous way. “Hiiro,” I braved unable to look at him while my mind swirled with all the things I wanted to say but he suddenly spilled his tray all over his lap and all I could do was gape while he cursed and rushed to clean it up. He was gone a moment later but I caught the odd little shift of his eyes when he looked back at me and felt something very old and true pulse in my heart. I was sure he didn’t hate me all of a sudden but he obviously didn’t want to talk to me either. It hurt while at the same time gave me hope that we might still be able to be friends somehow. “You should’ve snatched him by the hair and just OW!” Wufei grumbled rubbing the back of his head where Quatre had smacked him. ** “Duo?” “Hiiro?” I should have been more prepared to see him but it just never occurred to me that he’d show up at our regular weekend haunt alone. “Hi.” Relena? My heart did a back flip when suddenly confronted by their accompaniment. Of course he wasn’t alone; he would never have come otherwise. “Hi, Hiiro,” Quatre smiled glancing warily at his date who decided to sidle up and take his arm. My eyes shifted to the place where her hand was slipping into his elbow then Hiiro was suddenly moving and she lost her grip. “Aren’t you even going to say hello?” Wufei snipped after him but he only stopped for a moment in which his gaze flickered over my frame before he disappeared into the crowd. “Duo?” Quatre inquired laying a soothing hand on my arm. It took some effort to put my raging emotions back in order but I forced a calm and took a deep breath before I lied, “It’s ok.” I couldn’t keep my mind off of him but he seemed intent on avoiding me so the awkwardness was tempered until later in the night when I abandoned my favorite video game to go to the bathroom. I didn’t know he was in there and froze when I saw him. He appeared in much the same state of mind for a moment then quickly zipped up and shifted to the sink. It was obvious he wanted to pretend we didn’t know each other which caused a heavy weight to settle in my chest but I saw no reason to run and headed for the urinal. I heard a horrible crash the moment I undid my pants and turned to find Hiiro holding his head and the paper towel dispenser a mangled mess. “S…sorry,” he mumbled while his skin crisped then he was gone and I was left staring dumbly again. How in the world did he hit his head hard enough to break the dispenser? I sighed wondering over the extent of his need to run away and returned to my friends. “Are you ok?” Quatre asked noticing my depression instantly. He’d always been astutely attuned to the feelings of others but I wasn’t in the mood to talk about it. My frustration compounded as the night wore on when I was confronted with Hiiro’s inability to be close to me time and again. We rounded a corner at the same time at one point but the moment he saw it was me he turned so quickly he tripped over some guy and his girlfriend and went sprawling all over the carpet while Relena chased after him. There was another moment when I was playing Free for All, a game that usually pumps me up so I imagine my face was alight with excitement when I turned instinctively to find him suddenly floundering on the ski machine. I would have laughed at the ridiculous image he presented when he flailed and fell off but the oddity that Hiiro, of all people, would flounder wiped my mind clean. I came to the conclusion that I was making him unreasonably nervous by the end of the night because he hadn’t won a battle all night, had run into the wall twice and broken the arm wrestling machine when I walked by. I sighed while it groaned it’s last under Hiiro’s superior strength and resolved to put an end to it once and for all. “Good,” Wufei said when I asked to be dropped at Hiiro’s instead of my house the following day after school. “It’s about time you popped his cherry and just got on with it.” “Wufei!” Quatre scolded while I hid the scarlet mantle on my face. “I just need to talk to him,” I mumbled. “Forget talking,” Wufei snipped. “Just walk in and push him down OW! Would you stop that!” he grumbled rubbing the spot where Quatre had smacked his head. “I’m sure if you explain it to him,” my kind, blond friend offered supportively. “I have to try,” I sighed dreading the coming confrontation. They dropped me off with a smile from Quatre, a thumbs up ffrom Trowa and a leering smirk from Wufei and I stood staring at the front of a house where I had spent most of my childhood not knowing how to go about the task of knocking on the door. “Duo,” Odin smiled when I managed the feat but even though it wasn’t Hiiro who answered I still felt a little green. “Come in,” he offered ushering me inside just as he had so many times before. “Hiiro’s up in his room,” he informed me glancing back curiously when I simply stood by the door. “Would you tell him I’m here?” I asked making him instantly wary and concerned as my usual habit was to dash up the stairs without hesitation. “Is something wrong?” he asked in his fatherly way. If it had been anyone else I might have tried to lie but I’d known Odin as long as I’d known Hiiro so I ducked my head and explained, “He’s sort of mad at me.” “Whatever for?” he snorted as if the notion was absurd but all I could offer was a shrug. He eyed me carefully for a moment then turned toward the stairs but my heart jumped when I heard someone coming down them, my pulse speeding up when I recognized Hiiro’s feet then the world toppled when he caught sight of me and went tumbling down to pile in a heap at the bottom. “Hiiro!?” Odin gasped rushing to his side but he was already on his feet brushing himself off while we tried desperately not to look at each other. “What’re you doing here?” he grumbled making Odin’s brow crease and my heart ache. “I need to talk to you,” I explained. “Why don’t you two go on up to your room and I’ll…” “NO!” Hiiro suddenly gasped making us gape at him. Was he so scared of being alone with me? “Why not?” Odin inquired determinedly. “We can talk outside,” Hiiro countered ignoring his adopted father’s indignant gaze. I followed him through the house noting that my heart longed for the days when I was welcome to sit at the table and laugh with my best friend before we spilled into the back yard where we’d spent so many hours practicing, sparing and even fighting over the years. I wanted to tell him it was ok, that I understood his reluctance and confusion but there was a part of me that simply couldn’t forgive him for giving up on us just because I’d fallen in love. I felt tears sting at my eyes while I tried to force the words in my head past my lips but he stalled all thought when he offered a quiet… “I’m sorry.” “What?” I gasped softly. “I don’t know what to do,” he confessed making my heart race. “You don’t have to do anything,” I told him feeling hope spring to life at the thought that he was trying to work it out as hard as I was. “We can just go back to how it was,” I smiled reaching for him but the smile wilted when he backed into the koi pond and ended up waist deep in water when he tripped. “Damn it,” he sighed shaking the water off while he pulled himself out and I stared dumbly. “Hiiro?” I braved taking a step forward but he instantly retreated getting tangled in a rose bush and I gaped while he thrashed about and cursed until he was free. “Sorry,” he said glancing grumpily at me from the corner of his eyes. “Why?” I asked feeling the sorrow well up and claim me. Why couldn’t he even stand to be near me anymore? “Duo…” “I’m not infected!” I grumbled balling my hands into fists in frustration. “Wha…?” he gasped wide eyed. “Why do you keep running away!?” “Duo…I…” “Why are you afraid of me!?” “Stop it!” he suddenly snapped then had a hold of my arms while I gaped into his eyes, eyes that suddenly burned with emotions I’d never seen in their depths before. “Hiiro?” All thought left my head when he suddenly kissed me, his arms wrapped around me so tightly, his mouth so hungry while his body clung to mine I was on fire in an instant. “Hiiro!?” I gasped then he suddenly dropped me but when I looked up from where I’d collapsed on my knees he was staring down at me in horrified terror. “Hiiro?” I pleaded reaching for him but he back peddled and ended up in the koi pond again. “Shimata,” he breathed not bothering to move from the prone position on his back while he stared up at the blue sky. “Why?” I insisted still reeling from his kiss. He was quiet for a time then softly explained, “It was so hard before.” Before I fell in love. “Then when you said you loved me…” “I’ve always loved you,” I confessed. He took the time to sit up but didn’t bother getting out of the pond. “I didn’t think it was possible,” he said but it only confused me. “And now,” he said turning a gaze on me I’d never felt before but it made my heart race. “I’m afraid… I don’t want to hurt you.” “Hurt me?” I gaffed. “Yes,” he confirmed dejectedly dropping his gaze to watch the koi swim curiously by. “That’s why… we can’t be together anym…” “NO!” I exclaimed moving to the ponds edge. “Why can’t we…?!” “I can’t do it!” he suddenly snapped rising to his knees. “Just being around you makes me want…!” “What?” I breathed unable to comprehend what he was saying. His eyes grew wild with unbridled emotion that he bit back on while he confessed, “Things… that would hurt you!” He was there in front of me with his heart on his sleeve and a fire in his eyes I didn’t dare hold too tightly but I’m afraid I blinked at him. “These…things,” I smiled unable to restrain the sudden hope that crawled along my spine. “Wouldn’t happen to start with a kiss?” I couldn’t help the secret laugh when his entire head turned red and he turned his back and plopped down in the pond. “Hiiro,” I soothed reaching out a hand to touch his back but he tensed and suddenly commanded… “Don’t.” “But,” I breathed feeling his heat course though my fingers. “I don’t mind. AH!” I gasped when he suddenly spun, snatched up my wrist and pulled me into the pond, his strong hands gripping my arms while his hard body weighed me down and every cell in my body sang with hopeful enrapture. “You will!” he rasped then kissed me so passionately my legs curled up. “What I want,” he told me and I shivered under the heat of his righteous gaze. “Will break you,’ he promised sending chills all over my body while his hand slid down my side, the power in his fingertips calling forth a whimpering cry from my throat. “I can’t stop it, Duo,” he rasped leaning in near my ear while he forced his hands to my wrists and stilled. “You should abandon me,” he whispered sending a tremor right down my spine. My response was instant and delivered on a heated threat when I inquired, “Why?” He drew back to gape at me, his eyes taking in the slightly swollen condition of my lips and the way his hands possessively gripped my arms before I smiled and informed him, “It’s all I’ve ever wanted.” “Duo?” he breathed clearly shocked beyond reason while he moved slowly away and asked. “How could you…?” “Because,” I smiled using my newfound confidence by raising my arms which elongated my wet body and I shivered at the heat it caused in his eyes. “I’m not like you,” I explained preparing for it while he licked his lips but I suddenly understood. “I’ll hurt you,” he insisted but was unable to draw any further away. “I know,” I comforted opening my arms in invitation. “Duo?” he wibbled. “Don’t be afraid,” I entreated letting my legs fall slowly apart. He clenched his eyes shut and I had a moment of terror that he would withdraw then he growled and fell on me and the next thing I knew we were lost in a maelstrom. Everything I felt for him was there in his touch, every passionate embrace stealing my breath away. He had relieved me of my pants before the third kiss and pushed my legs apart. I was glad for the water because we had no idea what we were doing and the slickness of it eased the intrusion but I was so far gone on him nothing else mattered. “Duo?” he rasped when I tensed painfully. “Don’t stop!” I gasped clinging to him so tightly then he growled again and kissed me swallowing my cry while he claimed me body and soul. It was awkward and painful but I could feel the underlying pleasure, the rapture coursing through him infusing me with a heated passion I had given up hope of ever attaining and all at once my purpose was confirmed. I realized while he rocked me hard in that little pond the pain just didn’t matter. I would bear a thousand times more for his sake and wrapped myself around him fiercely while he pounded into me. He’d lost it completely but I was still afraid he would become aware of how much he was hurting me so I tried to hide it but he wasn’t satisfied with our position and gripped my hips tossing me back into the rock wall where the little water fall was while he lifted my legs and slammed inside me and suddenly my entire body was alight with burning pleasure. “Hiiro!” I cried clenching my eyes against the rushing heat but it ran rampant through my veins. I just caught the insane light in his eyes before he gripped my cock and stroked it firmly making me scream and arch back while my body dispelled the raging fire inside me but before I could catch my breath he dropped one leg while he held the other firm and growled… “More!” I understood the weight of my burden when he nailed me hard until I came again then forced me onto my knees and started over. I was so weak by the third go around my knees were shaking but I couldn’t stop the desire for more, to see that sparkling light in his beautiful eyes and feel the strength of his passion being forced into me. “Duo!” he rasped while he spread me on the stones, my ankles grasped tightly in either hand while he pushed them up and out allowing him to get right in there while I thrashed beneath him then I felt it coming and tried to hold on while he thrust and grunted and pounded into me, his movements becoming erratic and uncontrolled until his body shook and I felt a wave of pure ecstasy wash over me. I couldn’t find the will to move when the shadows returned to my eyes but the presence of his trembling body lying atop mine made me smile then he suddenly gasped and jerked up to glare down at me. “Duo?!” he exclaimed looking my wet, sweaty body over, his eyes growing more concerned by the moment when he saw the marks on my wrists, the bruises already appearing on my legs and the distant expression in my eyes. “Duo!?” “I love you,” I whispered using what remained of my energy to draw him close and kiss him. “You’re… all right?” he asked uncertainly unwilling to lay his full weight upon me. “Perfect,” was my reply because he had managed to turn my world into something sublime. “I hurt you,” he sulked moving away enough to attend the small injuries. “You make me happy,” I countered giggling at the dumbfounded expression in his eyes. “We’ll get better at it.” He snorted but relented and let me hold him. “If it gets any better I might kill you,” he commented and I laughed relishing the fact that Wufei was right all along. owari :)
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