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"Guys Like Us"Written By: t-shirt Disclaimer: Gundam Wing and its characters are
copyright to Sunrise, Bandai, Sotsu Agency, and associated parties.
I make no money with this fic. Rating: R Warnings: AU/College Romance, Brief mention of
group sex/orgy party, mild angst, casual sex Unbeta'ed Pairings: 1x2, 2+5, mention
of 3x4 Summary: When a young, college man inadvertently ends up at a co-ed orgy party and hooks up with a walking wet dream, he discovers the road to happiness is sometimes difficult to comprehend. "Guys Like Us"
Part 3 Time passed without my noticing for awhile. I just couldn’t believe it, that he could so infect my mind and body then just disappear forever. I woke up five days later with little more to show for it than a couple of take out boxes and three empty bottles of rum. I knew I had to get my shit together but it was so hard to forget how sweet he smelled and the tender smoothness of his skin. My dreams were drenched in his heat and my body ached to hold him but the worse part was the absence of everything else. I didn’t know what he liked to eat or his preference in movies, there wasn’t anything I could cling to but the memory of how thick his passion was and the longing desire to seek him out but I had no idea where he lived or where he might have gone so I forced myself into the shower and tried to get on with my life. I had left off my studies to the point drowning myself in my work was easy enough but in doing so I was eventually forced to return to the main campus. It was so hard being there, the memories of him flittered through my mind relentlessly. His smile on the first day we met, how flushed his skin could be when his body was worked in escalating rhythm, the heady sent of his sex. “Damn!” I growled ignoring the startled faces of some students across the courtyard when my fist slammed into a tree. It was so frustrating! I wanted so much more than the sweaty memories he had left me with I could barely control the mounting rage until my world suddenly ground to a standstill when I saw him come out of a building across the way. My heart lurched commanding my feet to take me there but the presence of another by his side stilled their flight. Instinct made me duck behind the tree and an insatiable need to know kept me there while I peered around the trunk and was confronted by the image of him laughing while his companion, a young Chinese boy, grinned and tucked a bit of whatever he was eating into his mouth. The soft blush that rose on Duo’s face coupled with the gently predatory expression in his friend’s eyes was all the information I needed to put it all together. He had a boyfriend. He’d made it sound like he’d be gone for weeks but it’d only been a few days. Had he lied? Was he trying to hide his extra curricular activities from his mate? Or was he even actually in a relationship with him? My heart raced with indignant fury at the thought that he was merely a playmate and all he wanted from Duo was to bang him but I couldn’t act because that’s exactly what Duo appeared to want too. My head split in pain when I slammed it back into the tree in frustration but I ignored the stinging of tears in my eyes to peer at them again only to find they were moving off campus through the main gate. I had to know more so my feet followed. It was so hard to keep my distance while I watched them flirt and laugh together. Why hadn’t I been allowed such simple pleasures? My ire rankled each time I watched his companion gently touch his elbow or find some reason to enter his personal space. He hadn’t kissed him or even put his arm around him for more than a moment and after about an hour of watching them walk around stopping to get a drink then stroll around the park I got the feeling they didn’t know each other very well. It looked very much like a first or second date when all was said and done and the guy certainly wasn’t taking any liberties that made me think he’d already been in Duo’s bed. It confused me. Then I grew angry because he’d never given me the chance to simply walk or just talk with him. He’d never smiled so comfortably or blushed so attractively when in my company and it pained me to think all I’d been was a good time. I left them flirting in front of an arcade and beat a path back to my apartment with one thought in mind. I would find a way to forget because what I wanted obviously didn’t exist. He’d used me just as he wanted to be used and that was the end of it. I tried so hard to make myself believe but two days later when I was once again forced to attend a lab on campus the inevitable happened and he walked out of a classroom not ten feet in front of me. I couldn’t breathe, he was there, right here in front of me just as beautiful and pristine as the first time I’d laid eyes on him. He looked so pure and innocent when his shin pinked I couldn’t help the smile that curled my lips but my heart was shaking inside me. “Hi,” I smiled getting a cheep thrill out of the way his gaze flickered nervously here and there. I still affected him. “How was your trip?” “Trip?” he asked then flamed red when he realized what he’d done. “Oh,” he tried to recover but was left with only, “Ummm…” “It’s alright,” I shrugged hoping to disarm whatever desperation was making him look like he wanted to bolt. “I already knew you didn’t go.” “Sorry,” he sighed looking crestfallen. “It’s alright,” I repeated stepping closer. “I understand,” I smiled hoping he’d get the subtle meaning that I wasn’t a threat to his relationship. I wasn’t sure if he’d caught my meaning though so I added, “I won’t tell,” and instantly regretted it. “Tell who?” he snipped suddenly defensive. “Ummm…” it was my turn to stumble because I had no idea how to continue without insulting him but was saved by the timely arrival of his mate. “Duo?” His presence caused a tension in Duo that made my brow wrinkle because if I had to label it I’d have to say it was stark terror. If he was that afraid of this guy finding out about the sex parties then he couldn’t have been just a playmate. The thought eased my mind and gave me hope that perhaps he’d given up the casual sex but the idea that he was already intimately ensnared depressed me beyond reason. “Hi,” Duo greeted when he drew near shying when he leaned in to peck his cheek. It was obviously a declaration of his territory and I wasn’t about to cause Duo any problems that I could possibly avoid so I conjured up a smile and offered an amiable, “Hello.” “Who’s this?” the Chinese boy asked staking his claim more firmly by slipping his arms around Duo’s waist. “Hiiro,” he replied squirming just enough to make his partner understand he was making him uncomfortable and he backed off. “Wufei,” the Chinese boy smiled offering his hand but the smile on his lips spoke ill of his intentions so I passed. He didn’t look happy but then Duo was pushing his hand back down and ushering him away while he tossing nervous glances back at me. “Who was he?” I heard Wufei asking as they moved down the hall. “No one,” Duo sighed impatiently and I felt the sting of it right in the center of my chest. “Hey! Duo!” I shouted loud and clear making them and everyone else in the hall turn their attention to me. “See you later,” I smiled unable to banish the sardonic nuance from my tone. He glared at me for a moment before his boyfriend grew impatient and they left and I fled the campus and got very, very drunk. It had been late morning when the scene took place so by the time evening rolled around I was pretty much wasted. I’d blown off the lab again, totally fucked up any chance I might have had with Duo and was probably looking at an all night gig with the throne gods so I dragged my sorry ass home to get started. Dry heaves are a bitch but when they stopped I felt marginally better. A shower seemed like a good idea but I decided against it when I toppled off the commode onto the floor so I just washed my face and brushed my teeth then went to find something to eat in the hope that I wouldn’t be so sick I couldn’t function the next day. It was late evening by the time my vision melted back into one image and I was preparing to sulk mightily when the doorbell rang. I had absolutely no idea how to feel when I saw him standing on my doorstep. “Uh…hi,” was all I could think of. “Hi,” he replied pushing past me hastily and pulling the door closed. I turned to seen him pulling pants off and regressed to an ameba type state. What was he doing? “What’s wrong?” he asked helping himself to the bottle of lube he knew was in the end table. “I’m here.” Yep, he was there and he looked so fucking good in a tank and black thong. “Yeah…but…” Maaaan, I could already smell the heady scent of his skin. He froze looking frightened for a moment while he inquired, “You wanted to see me, right?” “Hell, yeah,” I breathed taking in every juicy morsel when he resumed and pulled his shirt off. “Ok,” he said moving quickly toward me, each step driving a wedge between what remained of my good sense and my inebriated libido. “But I’m sort of pressed for time so…” I sucked in a long, deep breath when he wrapped around me and kissed me so hungrily something primal awakened inside me. A moment later my hands were gripping his ass, his legs were around my hips and we were moving fast toward the bedroom. Gods, the heat was incredible! I couldn’t catch my breath and he’d completely lost control of his higher functions coming at me like a wild animal. I couldn’t get inside him fast enough! Damn the foreplay, full steam ahead! He had enough mind to remember the lube before I damaged him permanently by shoving it in dry but once his ass was slick I couldn’t stop my trembling body from thrusting hard and deep. He let go a rasping howl clinging to me so tightly I would discover deep scratches along my arms and shoulders the next day but at the time I was too drunk and too high on him to give a shit. I laid into him with brutal force laughing heartily when he suddenly shook and came, his body folding under me but I shoved it back and forced him open while I fucked him harder. Something had broken inside me, I could feel it rattling around but didn’t have the mind to care if I fell apart. I needed him and if that was all he was willing to give me then I was going to take all of it he had and more. I was angry, hurt and frustrated, each painful scream that lashed his throat brought anguish to my heart but I couldn’t’ stop. When he came again I growled and flipped him over slamming him from behind until the bed was soaked in his tears, the sheets stained with his heat and the air filled with pleas for mercy. “Come’re,” I laughed drunkenly getting off on how helpless he was when I turned him on his side and took his leg in hand. “No…please,” he rasped too spent to do much about it and I felt the rage flex and boil inside me. He’d come there to get fucked so what was he complaining about? “I’ll give you what you want,” I snarled hiking him up so that his body bounced violently with every savage thrust of my furious hips. He cried a lot after that but he stopped whining and took it like a man. He was on his fifth climax before my buzz started to wear off enough for me to realize what I was doing to him but the anger refused to let me relent until he was curled in a shivering ball with a huge amount of my cum leaking out of his swollen ass. The pain seeped in as quickly as the euphoria faded and I was left staring at him, his skin blotched with darkening patches where my hands had held him, his limbs trembling where they hid his tear streaked face and the evidence of my betrayal staining the inside of his body. I didn’t know what to say or do so I let the darkness grip me and sank to the bed with my back to him so I couldn’t see my sin. My mouth opened desperate to apologize when he moved but nothing came out. What was I supposed to say? I’m sorry was so inadequate I was ashamed to even speak it. There was so much I wanted to say, so much I wanted to tell him but the truth was he’d come there for one reason and he’d gotten more than he bargained for. My only hope was that after what I’d done to him he wouldn’t come back. I didn’t want it to be like that with him anymore, I didn’t want to hurt him but I couldn’t help the anger over his callous behavior. I was just another cock to him and the pain of it washed through me while he stumbled around getting dressed but when he headed for the door I saw an image of Wufei in my mind and couldn’t hold my tongue. “Do you love him?” He paused and I felt a pang at the thought that he needed a moment to pull himself together before he hissed in a voice raw from overuse and strained with tension, “I wanted to.” My eyes slid closed along with the door and I felt a pain I didn’t recognize. It was deep, saturating and undeniably permanent. There is only one way to go when you’ve hit bottom so in the days that followed I started to put my life back together. I knew what I was feeling would never change; my only hope was to learn to live with it. Another week passed and I was just beginning to feel human again when I saw him for the first time. He was coming out of the library and hadn’t noticed me so I stepped around a corner to avoid him while all the strange emotions he caused inside me swirled in my head. My attempt proved fruitless however, when he rounded the corner and ran right into me. “Sorry,” I said letting go of his arm where I’d gripped it to keep him from falling. “Hiiro,” he gasped glancing back into the courtyard nervously. Gods, he looked so scared. What had I don’t to him? “Are you… all right?” I asked fearing the worse. If I’d seriously damaged him I’d never get over it. His eyes flashed and he looked around again before answering, “Yes…I’m ok.” His tone was odd which made me curious enough to step forward and touch his arm. “Duo?” “I can’t right now,” he told me stepping away. “What?” Gods, was he still thinking about sex?! “I have a class,” he explained moving quickly away while he added, “Meet me in the gym in an hour,” then he was gone. Holy shit. Was he actually willing to go there again? I just couldn’t comprehend how in the hell he could still want me. He had to have dozens of other lovers that would be more than willing to accommodate him. Ones that wouldn’t hurt him the way I had. Was he a masochist? I had no idea what to think nor did I have any intention of touching him again but I wanted him to know I bore him no ill will and apologize so I showed up at the appointed time and discovered him sitting forlornly on a bench in the deserted locker room. My mind was filled with fantasies the moment his eyes turned toward me because they were already smoldering with heat. “Wait,” I forced through suddenly dry lips but he ignored me standing to wrap me up in one smooth motion. “Duo.” “You’ll have to make it quick,” he told me pulling a tube of lube from his pocket. I stood in utter shock while he dropped his pants and bent over the bench reaching back to dribble a thick stream of lube on his already twitching ass. “I have a class in twenty minutes,” he informed me while I scrubbed a hand over my face and peered between my fingers while his dug around in his hole. Well, I’m not stupid so I stepped forward, freed my already throbbing cock and shoved it hard and deep. He hadn’t been lying about his well being because he was just as perfect as the first time I’d taken him, his body was so fucking tight, his heat a smoldering enticement and it was all I could do to hold him still while I fucked him fast and deep. He shook and came about halfway through but from what he’d said I knew there was no time to play so I revved it up, rammed it hard and dumped a seething load deep inside him. He was still shaking hard when he forced himself to his feet pulling a rag from his pocket to wipe off with before righting his pants. “Duo,” I tried but was suddenly lost in his kiss. “I have to go.” “I want to see you again,” I told him snatching him back into my arms. My heart skipped a beat when he asked, “When?” “Tonight!” I enthused feeling bad when his eyes widened. He was so cute I couldn’t help the smile when I kissed his temple and promised, “I’ll be gentle.” He nodded then broke away and disappeared but the pain inside me had receded somewhat with the knowledge that he’d apparently forgiven me. I made a decision in that moment. If sex was all he was willing to give then I’d learn to live with it because it had become painfully obvious that I was no longer capable of living without him. He came to me that night and I loved him slowly savoring each and every gasping moan. He didn’t talk much and I didn’t push him but I made sure he understood when he left in the wee hours of the morning I wanted to see him again. We fell into a strange routine after that. I knew he was probably meeting his other lovers, attending their parties and relishing their touch but I couldn’t see him as anything but beautiful. There was just no tainting him in my eyes so every time we met I tried to cherish him for everything wonderful he was. We went on that way for a couple of weeks before reality finally caught up with us and I bumped into him and Wufei at a nearby café. “Hi,” he smiled glancing nervously at his companion. I tried to keep from scowling but the idea that I was just a fuck buddy while Wufei was a serious love interest made it difficult. “Hiiro, wasn’t it?” Wufei sort of grinned slipping his arm around the waist I’d used to secure Duo the night before so he wouldn’t scoot across the bed while I pummeled him. “We were just going to get a bite to eat,” Duo interjected making his request for my absence known by taking Wufei’s arm and raising his brow but I was feeling just pissy enough to refuse. “Great,” I grinned offering them the way. “I was about to order. We can share a table.” He glared at me but didn’t have a reasonable argument so we found a seat. There were the usual pleasantries, inquiries about majors and minors, hometowns and future aspirations but the real conversation was going on between the lines. Duo kept flashing me heated glares whenever he thought Wufei couldn’t see which for some reason amused me. I didn’t want to hurt him but knowing he was discomforted by his behavior with me indicated some remorse over his actions and that made me happy. I wondered how he kept his other activities from his would be mate. It was fairly clear by the time the check came that they hadn’t progressed in their relationship past the awkward first stage. “My treat,” I smiled intercepting Wufei’s attempt to claim the bill. “That’s very generous of you,” he smiled but I could tell he was anything but grateful. “We should get going,” Duo cut in rising but everyone stopped when I suddenly followed suit. I didn’t know what to say because the words on my lips were ‘don’t go’ but I couldn’t voice them so, “Are you attending Pritchard’s lecture?” popped out instead. His eyes darted to Wufei’s curious gaze before he shook it off and replied, “Of course.” I smiled while I watched them go then took off at breakneck speed the moment the coast was clear. Prichard wasn’t a professor; it was a book on gardening that rested on a shelf of one of our favorite store rooms. I didn’t know how long it would take him to get there but was ecstatic when he arrived not ten minutes after I did. He must have dumped Wufei fast which made me so happy I snatched him up and nailed him like there was no tomorrow. “Shit…ease up,” he panted still blinking the tears out of his eyes. “Sorry,” I chuckled moving back so he could sit up straight. “I watched him straighten his hair and put himself right for a time before my curiosity got the better of me. “Why him?” He stopped stone still and stared at me then sighed and went back to fixing his bangs. “He’s nice,” was all he offered. Nice. “I’m nice,” I grinned leaning in to nibble his ear. “Too nice,” he grumbled gently pushing me away but it felt like he’d shoved a stake through my heart. “Duo.” “What?” he sighed impatiently pausing at the door. It was just never going to be enough. “Never mind,” I snipped pushing past him. “I have class,” he grumbled. “I’ll come by later.” “Don’t bother,” I growled fed up with the entire situation. His head was so fucked up he didn’t even know what he was doing anymore. How he could be banging half the guys on campus and still trying to start a relationship with Mr. Nice Guy was beyond me. The whole thing was starting to take its toll, I wanted him so badly but I wanted him for myself. Maybe it was selfish, I knew it was self destructive considering his choice of lifestyle but I couldn’t help it. However, I regretted my weakness more than words can say when he didn’t show up that night. I realized the next day that I didn’t know where he lived because he always came to my place and started to panic. Two days later I was having serious withdrawals and searching everywhere for him but he was nowhere to be found. I’d looked everywhere but no one had seen him and I started to get scared that something had happened to him. Perhaps one of his lovers had mistreated him or some other accident had disabled him then it hit me when I saw Kimmy and her friend Brima coming out of B building. “Hey!” I called disregarding her shocked elation as I had managed to avoid her since that first party but I needed her now. “Hi!” she beamed giggling at her friend who giggled along. “Where’s Duo?” “Duo?” she inquired seeming at a loss. “Duo?” I persisted. “Thin guy, long hair.” “Oh!” she laughed. “I don’t know. He stopped talking to me after Jacob’s party. I guess he’s a prude.” “What?” What? My mind went blank. “Not every bodies into it,” she grinned flashing me a coy glance. “I thought you knew him.” What was she saying? “Not really,” she shrugged. “He was new so I invited him along but he wouldn’t talk to me afterwards. Some people are like that. Hey!” I had no more time for her. If what she was saying was true then I’d make such a horrible mistake. But if he wasn’t into the swing scene why had he come to that party? “You said you’d be here.” His words resounded in my head stopping my feet in their tracks. He’d come to see me and I’d assumed… I’d been so overwhelmed with lust that I’d taken him without regard. But why had he continued? I had to find him and had only one other recourse left. “Hiiro?” The look on Wufei’s face when he opened his door to find me standing on his doorstep was priceless but I didn’t care about him at the time. “Is Duo here?” “Hiiro?” I heard Duo curiously intone then he gasped when I pushed by Wufei to face him. “I need to talk to you.” “Wh… now?” he exclaimed looking cautiously to Wufei. “What’s so important you had to track him down here?” Wufei asked in open irritation. “I love him,” I replied feeling as if the words had been sucked from my mouth. “Duo,” I breathed taking him by the arms when his legs began to tremble. “Please… I was all wrong.” “What’re you saying?” he asked trying to silently apologize to Wufei but his eyes were seeking me out. “I thought you were a player,” I told him hanging my head in shame and self loathing. “When I saw you at that party…” “Why were you there?” he asked looking more pale by the moment. “Because you were,” I told him hoping he would understand. “I’d never been to a place like that.” “Me either,” he laughed looking to Wufei again to ask, “Remember Kimmy?” Wufei rolled his eyes and shut the door. “Why didn’t you just tell me to get lost?” I wondered still at a loss as to why he’d let someone he thought was screwing him for fun continue to do it. His gaze again lighted on Wufei and the Chinese boy sighed deeply and asked, “How long have you been sleeping with him?” “Gods, Fei, I’m sorry,” Duo groaned finding a chair. “We met about the same time as you and I,” he confessed. “But I thought all he wanted was…” his face crisped while the words evaded him. “Why did you keep meeting me after that night?” I asked desperate to understand why I’d been forgiven. “Because,” Duo sighed. “I thought if I didn’t you might tell Wufei then…” his face flushed again forcing his eyes away. “Then what, Duo?” I persisted urging his gaze back to my own. Duo’s eyes wavered for a moment then swelled and creased with pain while jerked his gaze away. “I didn’t want to stop, ok!? But I was just another hole to you.” “No!” I growled. “Never! Duo… I don’t even know those people. Kimmy coerced me there the same as you. All I want is you,” I told him taking advantage of his momentary shock to kiss his sweet lips. “Please,” I begged folding him in my arms. “I love you.” “No wonder I couldn’t get laid,” Wufei chuckled breaking the tender moment. Duo came up sniffling but smiling and I suddenly felt a hell of a lot better! “He is a bit insatiable,” Duo grinned. “I’m sorry, Wufei,” I offered knowing full well what the loss of Duo felt like. “I’ll survive,” the Chinese boy sighed. “At least now I understand why there was always a wall between us. It’s good to see you smile,” he told Duo bringing a tired reflection of one to his lips. I convinced Duo to move in with me though he retained his apartment for the first few weeks. I didn’t mind though, he could have whatever security he needed. It was all just another stepping stone on our road together and I intended to make him so happy he’d never want to leave. He seemed content once things settle into a routine, his classes were mostly on campus and mine were for the most part virtual which gave us enough time apart to miss each other so the nights were filled with rolling passion, the days speckled with delightful company and I discovered he had great taste when Wufei became one of our best friends. He’s introducing me to the arts this week and I’m tutoring him in meteorology. It’ll be fun to see the exhibit with him, he’s quite excited as the artist is apparently someone he’s acquainted with. He and his lover, Trowa agreed to have dinner with us after the show and Duo insisted Wufei tag along so it should be a fun night. I honestly could not imagine my life having turned out any better. Duo had enriched it beyond any measure of my wildest dreams and the best part is I get to remind myself of that fact every, single night. owari :)
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