" Remember "

Written By: Heeroin Yuy

Disclaimer : GW bishies don't belong to me, i only use them to entertain
myself and others.

Rating : NC17

Warning : rape, AU, yaoi, angst

Pairing : implied Trowa X Quatre, Wu Fei X Duo and rape : Zechs X Duo

Archive: http://www.geocities.com/sanasagara/REM

Summary : what's the cause of Duo's weird angst for smoke and fire? Wu Fei
really would like to know what happened to his lover...

(participating fic in Bella_atropa’s angst contest)

[* * * stands for begin and end of a flashback]

 

Remember

Wu Fei and Duo were sitting at the dinner table. Tonight, they celebrated their first year together, yes… the whole 365 days. Wu Fei still couldn’t believe it, but he had not forgotten about this night. He had a very special gift for his lover… Duo sighed.

“One year already…”
“I know”, Wu Fei replied with a smile.
“I still can’t figure out how I’ve survived you during this time…”, Duo chuckled.
“Neither do I”

Another chuckle. Wu Fei felt in his pocket and took out his present for Duo. It wasn’t anything big, but it had cost him a fortune.

“I got a present for you, Duo”, the Chinese whispered.

Duo’s eyes widened.

“Wu Fei, idiot! You shouldn’t have… I didn’t get you anything…”
“That’s okay, Duo”

The young Chinese opened his hand and showed the two beautiful golden rings laying on in his palm.

“Happy anniversary, Duo”, Wu Fei smiled.

The long braided boy could only stare at the jewels, he couldn’t bring out a word.

“I… I…”, he stuttered.
“Don’t say anything, Duo, just put it on…”

The Chinese took the left ring and put it on Duo’s left ring finger, then he put the other on his own.

“Since marriage isn’t an option, I thought I should think of something else… And since this is tradition in America…”
“Wu Fei, this it too much…”
“No, it’s not”, the black haired firmly said, “nothing is too much for you”

Duo blushed, he didn’t say anything, he only studied the shiny golden ring around his finger.

“It has your name in it”, he remarked.
“I know… your name is on mine too”
“Thanks Wu Fei, really… Sorry, I didn’t get you anything…”
“Your love is enough for me”, Wu Fei assured him.

Duo flashed his Chinese lover a wide grin.

“You know you have that”

The young Asian stood up and walked over to Duo’s side, kissing his long braided boyfriend gently on the lips.

“I’m gonna get dinner ready, okay?”
“Mmm”, Duo moaned under the kiss.

Wu Fei let go of Duo’s lips, softly chuckling.

“Patience, Duo, patience”, Wu Fei smirked, “Dinner first”

Duo pouted.

“I’m really hungry, Duo, we’ll play later”

As the Chinese was cooking dinner, the phone rang, Duo answered it.

“Duo… Hey Q-man, how are ya? Me and ‘Fei? Fine, thanks… Ya wanna talk to ‘m? Hold on a sec, will ya…”

He turned away from the phone.

“’Fei?”
“Yes?”
“The Q-man wants to talk to ya…”
“Coming…”

Wu Fei came out of the kitchen and took over the phone. Duo pointed at the kitchen, afraid that the food was going to burn, but Wu Fei waved his hand to assure him it was okay.

“Quatre? Yes… You wanted to talk to me? I see… When we’re coming over? What for? To celebrate… So you guys remembered?”, Wu Fei chuckled “Yes, tonight’s fine… after we had dinner then. No, no need to pick us up, you just live around the corner, for god’s sake. Heero’s coming too? I see… Don’t worry ‘bout it.. he’ll come, he always does…”

All of a sudden, Duo panicked and touched his lover’s shoulder.

“Hold on, Quatre”, Wu Fei turned around, “What is it, Duo?”

The brown haired boy pointed at the kitchen? Smoke was everywhere…

“See ya tonight, Quatre, we have a little problem right now… gotta go…”

The Chinese hung up and stared at Duo. The kid was unusually pale and the fear could be read in his cobalt blue gaze. His knees were shaking, he wanted to scream, but his mouth was too dry. Wu Fei decided that it wasn’t the time to worry about Duo, his fucking kitchen was on fire! He sprinted towards the kitchen to turn off the stove and when he came back, Duo was sitting in a corner of the room, curled up like a terrified animal. The Chinese opened the windows to let out the dark smoke, then he walked over to his lover. He sat down in front of him and put his hands on the boy’s shoulders. Duo slowly looked up.

“Why are you so afraid of smoke, Duo?”, he softly asked.

The boy shook his head.

“I don’t know”
“Have you ever been through something?”
“I don’t know… I can’t remember”

Duo was sobbing now and Wu Fei took him into his arms.

“It’s okay, Duo…”

They didn’t move, they didn’t speak, only Duo’s sobs could be heard.

…

…

“Quatre, it’s Wu Fei. Can we come over for dinner?”
“Yeah, sure, what’s wrong?”
“I’ll tell you when we get there. Has Heero arrived yet?”
“Yes, in fact he has, he has arrived ten minutes ago”
“Good, we’re leaving right now”
“See ya in a few minutes then”

Wu Fei put down the phone, turning around. Duo was sitting on the couch, he was silent, maybe still a bit shocked.

“Come on, Duo, we’re going over to Quatre’s place”

Duo nodded and stood up. The Chinese laid his arm around Duo’s waist, pulling him somewhat closer.

“Are you alright Duo?”
“Yeah, I’m fine…”, the American softly replied.

Wu Fei lightly kissed his boyfriend on the lips, before he pulled him with him towards the door.

…

…

“Coming!”, Quatre shouted as he sprinted towards the door to open it.
“Good evening, Wu Fei, good evening Duo”, he greeted.

Both young men returned the gesture and entered. Duo sniffed the air.

“What’s cooking?”
“Trowa is busy in the kitchen, go over there and give ‘m a hand if you like”
“Sure thing”

The kid hopped to the kitchen, greeting Heero on his way. Wu Fei’s gaze followed him.

“Now talk”, Quatre said.

The Chinese sighed.

“I was on the phone with you and the food started burning. Smoke everywhere, Duo
panicked…”
“That’s it?”
“This wasn’t normal, Quatre, he curled up in a corner of the room like a little kid. It was an awful sight.”
“I see”
“I’m really worried. I think he’s repressing something from his past, a bad memory or something”
“Could be”
“I’d like to find out, but I don’t want to put him in that situation again”
“Sooner or later, he’ll remember and he’ll tell you”
“I really hope so”

A short pause.

“What did he think of the ring?”, Quatre asked.
“He loved it”
“That’s good to hear…”, the blonde smiled, “Come on, will sit down in the living room until dinner is ready. Heero’s here too…”
“Sure”

They went to the living room and sat down on the couch. Heero was silently sitting in the armchair, deep in thoughts.

“How are things between you and Trowa?”
“Fine, but I’d wish he’d talk more to me. It’s hard sometimes to bare the silence”
“I wish I could make Duo shut up sometimes. He just can’t stop…”, the black haired chuckled.
“Dinner is ready”, Trowa’s head popped out of the around the corner.
“Thank you”, the Arabian said, “Come on, let’s eat”

The three young men stood up and went to the dining room.

…

…

Later that evening, the five boys were sitting in the living room, talking and laughing. Wu Fei glanced at his lover, the boy was relaxed, maybe a bit drunk from the wine, but that didn’t matter right now. The most important thing was that he didn’t worry too much about what happened earlier. Heero slowly stood up.

“I’m going home”, he announced.
“Already?”, Duo pouted.
“Yes”
“Okay, I see ya tomorrow or so?”
“Maybe…”
“Come Heero, I’ll let you out”, Quatre offered.
“Really, Quatre, that isn’t necessary. Thank, but really…”
“Okay, then…”

The Japanese boy left, leaving the others on their own.

“We should go home too, Duo, it’s getting late…”
“I guess you’re right, it really is getting late…”
“Trowa, Quatre, thanks for dinner”, Wu Fei said, “We’ll see ya tomorrow”

Duo and Wu Fei left Quatre and Trowa on their own, the long haired boy as he stepped out in the nocturnal air. The Chinese noticed it, he wrapped his arm around his lover’s shoulders.

“Come on, Duo, let’s go home.”

They walked down the street, around the corner as they saw smoke and fire two blocks further. Duo stopped, his eyes widened with fear.

“Duo, are you okay?”, Wu Fei asked, seriously worried.

The kid didn’t answer, he was shaking in pure angst.

“Wu Fei!”, a voice called out.

The black haired looked over his shoulder.

“Trowa? Quatre?”, he asked.
“Yes, Quatre saw smoke…”
“It’s coming from two blocks further”, the blonde joined them.
“But…”, Wu Fei stuttered.
“That’s where Heero lives”, Duo finished the phrase.

The kid started running, his long braid hopping behind him.

“Duo!”, the Chinese called out, “Shit!”

The boy started following his lover, he knew that Heero was a close friend to Duo and Duo would even give his life for him! The other two ex-pilots glanced at each other and then started running after the other duo.

…

…

Duo stopped in front of a burning flat. The whole building was on fire and there was smoke everywhere. Fire men were crowding the place to get out the habitants. The kid looked around in panic, but no sign of Heero. So he still had to be in the building! The American didn’t hesitate another second and ran through the smoke, towards the flames into the building. The other three arrived a few seconds later.

“Duo!”, Wu Fei shouted, “Damn, he must have gone into the building…”
“Chang!”, a voice sounded from behind him.

The boy turned around.

“Yuy!… Wait a sec… Yuy? Heero?”

The Japanese shrugged.

“Aren’t you in there?”
“No, I just live in the next block. Why?”
“Duo ran inside to look for you!”

Heero said nothing for a moment.

“Shit!”, he cursed then, “I’ll go get him!”
“I go with you…”
“No, Chang, I’ll find him, I promise. This is my fault!”

Before Wu Fei could protest, Heero was already gone.

“Heero!”, he scolded.

The young Chinese was about to go after him as he felt Trowa’s hand on his shoulder.

“I’ll go”, he said and took off.
“Trowa!”, Quatre shouted.

The blonde sighed, laying his arm around Wu Fei’s shoulders.

“They’ll find him”, he tried to reassure the other, which could only heave a sigh.

…

…

“Heero!”, Duo called out, “Heero! Where are you?”

He turned around, frightened by the fire and the smoke, searching for Heero.
Suddenly, a large piece of burning material fell in front of him, Duo jumped back. The fire stared to surround him, closing him in further, driving him with his back against the wall.
Duo lost it, he panicked and started hyperventilating. He was terrified, he sank to his knees, burying his face in his hands. The memories were started to creep back to his mind.

* * *

Zechs Marquise standing over him, himself tied to the floor with iron chains around his wrists, ankles and neck. He was bare naked and the pain of the heavy iron on bare flesh was almost unbearable. Then the pain inside… He could remember the grunts, the groans, the immense pain as Zechs roughly penetrated him. He had never thought he would lose his virginity like this, he didn’t want this! He had struggled, tried to resist the penetration, but due to the fact that he was tied down to the floor, that was just not possible. He remembered the thrusts and more pain… He hadn’t screamed, he hadn’t cried, he had even stopped his useless fighting. He had been brutally raped, he had felt like a little whore, he had felt dirty…
After Zechs had withdrawn, just before he had left, he had set the place on fire. The smoke had filled the room, the flames licking at the walls, it had been pure horror… and Duo then had lost consciousness.

* * *

He had repressed this memory for so long and now, due to the smoke and fire, it had all crept back to him. He almost couldn’t breathe anymore and he felt himself slipping away into the state of unconsciousness.

…

…

Duo fluttered his lashed and slowly opened his eyes. The ceiling seemed kind of familiar to him, Quatre was standing over him. Heero was standing in a corner of the room.

“How are you feeling?”
“I dunno…”, he managed to bring out, “where am I?”
“Our house”, Trowa joined Quatre, slipping his arm around the blonde’s waist.

Duo frowned.

“Are you guys related or anything?”

The two ex-pilots shot each other a meaningful glance.

“Don’t you remember?”, Trowa asked.
“Err… no…”

Quatre softly cursed. If Duo didn’t remember them being a couple for almost one and a half year, then he certainly wouldn’t remember anything about him and Wu Fei…

“Duo”, the Arabian softly said, “Do you remember anything about Wu Fei?”
“Wu Fei? What about the bastard?”, Duo scolded, “He attacked Heero for no reason…”
“Duo, that is almost one and a half year ago…”

The braided boy remained silent, laying back in the pillows.

“I guess not then”, Heero softly said.
“Should I?”

Silence…

“Duo, you should get some sleep, you must recover”, Quatre broke the silence.

The kid nodded and closed his eyes again. Heero sadly shook his head and walked out of the room, closing the door carefully behind him. Wu Fei was waiting in the hallway, nervously walking up and down. He stopped as he saw Heero.

“How is he?”
“Physically okay”
“But…?”
“He lost a part of his memory”
“Which part?”
“The last one and a half year…”

Wu Fei closed his eyes for a moment, trying to hold the tears back.

“What does he remember from the past then?”
“Everything, including that he was raped by Zechs and that then the room was set on fire. And then there’s a big gap in his memory, concerning the last one and a half year…”, Heero sighed.

The Chinese nodded.

“Did he say anything else?”
“We asked if he remembered anything about you?”
“And?”
“He only remembers that you attacked me almost two years ago. And he didn’t seem happy with it.”

Wu Fei was defeated, he felt like breaking down right now.

“I think it’s best for him, and for you too, not to see each other right now. He’s confused, lost a part of memory…”

The black haired didn’t answer.

“Go home, Chang, and take this with you.”

The Japanese’s palm showed Duo’s ring Wu Fei had given to him.

The young Asian took the ring and left Quatre and Trowa’s house, going home.

…

…

The next few weeks, Wu Fei almost didn’t leave his house. He felt no need to go see the others, he felt bad and guilty for not going after Duo himself. He heaved a sigh, Quatre had called him now almost a week ago? Duo still didn’t remember anything about their relationship. It made the Chinese even sadder.
Suddenly, someone rang the doorbell. He stood up and went to open the door. It was Duo…

“What are you doing here? Wasn’t I the one that attacked Heero for no reason?”, he ironically said to the braided boy.
“I still remember that… but that’s almost it… Heero and Quatre told me that we had become friends afterwards. Very close friends… I didn’t know what to think of it, honestly… So Heero encouraged me to seriously talk some things over with you. Can I come in please?”
“Sure”, Wu Fei softly said.

And in thoughts he thanked Heero for giving him a second chance…

…

OWARI

 

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