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" Ride The Lightning "Written By: ShenLong Disclaimer: I don't own the G boys. They belong to their respective copyright agencies. The song "Ride the Lightning." Is courtesy of Metallica and all rights are theirs. Pairings: None. Warnings: Angst, Language, Death, (depending on how you interpret this.) Rating: R // Denotes Song Lyrics. Notes: Duo has been captured by OZ. Will the other pilots manage to rescue him in time?
" Ride The Lightning " Aug. 2002 ShenLong. I looked up and met the stony eyes as the verdict was passed down. I never moved, never let anything show in my eyes to betray the turmoil that was boiling within me. I had expected as much. But it still didn't make it easier. Forgive me father for I have sinned..... // Guilty as charged Yeah I'm guilty. I carry the blood of the innocents along with the blood of the enemy on my hands and their screams in my soul. You think that's easy? I didn't ask for this, All I asked for was peace. We all did. I have lived with the knowledge of my actions and the results that stemmed from them. Hell I was but a pawn in the game. My missions came through and I acted upon them the way I had been trained to do, the way we had all been trained to do. Five lost pawns on the ocean of black and white, consumed by the game. I wish it had all been black and white and not the many shades of gray that saw us flounder, caught between moves. Sure we helped each other. Once we knew who could be trusted we formed a bond. A special bond that only those who have fought would understand. // Death in the air Death... yeah that's what we were. Sitting in the tiny cockpit with controls in your hands, fingers on the buttons and feet on the pedals we had the power. The power of destruction. You know something? All that power can go to your head if you're not careful. Take Quatre for example.... the Zero system.... Poor guy, he fucked up, fucked up big time. And then Heero when he destroyed the shuttle. Another fuck up. Hell we all fucked up at some time, letting the power use us as it wanted. Do I regret it I hear you ask? Now that's a fair question. I cannot lie to you. No I don't regret fighting. I fought for what I believed in, I fought for the colonies so that those that were weaker could hold their heads up with pride and live without fear. I fought for revenge on those that took from me the ones I loved. // Who made you God to say Shinigami..... I didn't ask for the title but somehow I got it. I guess I could wield the scythe just as good as the one I was named after. // Flash before my eyes There's something mesmerizing about the scythe you know. The way it arcs gracefully through the air, slicing and dicing as it moves. You go numb after a while, the blade takes on a life of its own and you don't even think about the soul that you have just taken. All you can feel is the heat of the battle. Crazy? Yeah. Ya know I had a pretty nifty suit. All shiny black with its gold trim and powerful scythe. But the cloaking device... now that was a cool advantage. // Wait for the sign I could sneak up on those Oz suits and be amongst them before they knew what hit them. I'd wait until I had the strategy figured and then hit the button. You should have heard the panic that came from their communications systems as I would de cloak and fire up the scythe. Unfair? Hell yes it was unfair but since when did Oz fight fair? // Sweat, chilling cold You know what its like to watch as the suits before you explode and burn? No I guess you don't. It's both fascinating and demoralizing. One minute they are moving about returning fire, alive and vibrant...... then ... nothing. Just hunks of twisted metal wires and flesh left to float in space until some poor bastard comes along to retrieve what's left. I would hate to be that guy. Some of the bodies must be so mutilated and burned into the metal that it would be hard to see where the suit leaves off and the body begins. In space no one can hear you scream.... believe me I know. // My fingers grip with fear Forgive me father for I have sinned....... I guess it was only a matter of time before my sins caught up with me, caught up with all of us. Strange but in one way I feel relief. Father Maxwell and Sister Helen, now they were two of the best people you could have wished to meet. They never thought of themselves, always doing what they could for the rest of us rats. I wish I had listened more to them, tried harder to be what they wanted me to be. But how did I repay them? I brought upon their destruction. // Flash before my eyes I can still see the smoking ruins, the charred and burnt bodies of my friends... my family. They never had a chance and it was all through my own doing. Sister Helen... she forgave me. I found her, lying broken in a pool of blood and all she could think of was forgiving me. That's the last time I cried. And now it's time for my atonement. How do I feel about that? I don't really know. Relief? Anger? Fear? I suppose I deserve everything that is coming to me. I had no right to do what I did and yet strange as it may seem I would do it all again if I had to. War criminal. So that's what they call us? // Someone help me Why do I laugh I hear you ask? Let me tell you then. I have been in situations like this before, captured, tortured and yet I would not speak of what they wanted to know. I held my silence. Why? Because I knew they would come for me. They always came for me. You see that was part of our bond. As fucked in the head as we may be we would be there for each other. No matter who... one of us would make it through. // Time moving slow So you think this is the end for me? Seeing me strapped here awaiting the justice all seem to be so intent on serving. I see you have the witnesses, just to make it all legal. Tell me..... Will they be able to sleep at night? Yes I killed the soldiers, Yes I killed some innocents but I have lived with my demons and learned to share my torment and pain. There is not a day gone past that I haven't thought of the lives I have taken. But the blame is not entirely mine. I am but a tool that was used for the benefit of others and where are they now? That's exactly what I expected. // How true is this? Yes I have one more thing to say before I go. They will be here soon.... He wont leave me here like this at the mercy of some unjust system. Why do you laugh? I know my fellows well enough. They will come.... Can I ask you something father? Would you please remove your cowl. I would like to gaze upon a holy face once more. I watch and wait for the features to be revealed. The hood is pulled back slowly and I feel the icy chill of fear pass down my spine. The skin is pulled taunt outlining the skull, the teeth evident behind a lip less mouth locked into an evil grin and eye less sockets greet me in macabre stare of endless blackness. // Wakened by a horrid scream A scream tore from my throat as my body fought to regain consciousness. Every nerve within my body burned as it touched by a thousand volts. I trembled uncontrollably as my senses came back on line. Sweat drenched every part of my skin and icy fingers gripped my heart. My eyes opened wide as I stared about me in an attempt to anchor to something familiar. A figure moved towards me and as I gazed into the eyes of the one who's name I had adopted, so reality crashed down upon my head. They hadn't come....... // Flash before my eyes They didn't come..... Heero didn't come....... Did they?....... Taking Shinigami's hand, I followed...... ~ Owari ~ |
