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"Pax Ultima"Written By: Clara Barton Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing. The following
is an intellectual exercise with no intention of profit. That said,
these characterizations, words, and situations are mine. Please ask
before reprinting. Rating: NC 17 Warnings: Angst, violence, language, sex Pairings: If you need to know, please email me
and I will be happy to tell you. Summary:They fought for peace, but peace took away what they loved the most. A very grim tale of suspense and betrayal, set post-canon and featuring character death. Thanks as always to the always fabulous Cuzo
for being my beta! "Pax Ultima " Chapter Twenty Duo stepped away, shoved his hands in his pockets and took a few steps towards the bed, stopped, looked at it and sighed and then turned back to meet Trowa's glare. "We fucked," he admitted, "once. Just one time." Trowa arched an eyebrow, waiting for more, because one time wasn't what he had thought, but it wasn't nothing. Duo drew in a deep breath, glanced over at Wufei, maybe looking for support, but he found none. "We'd heard things about those riots - the alleged riots and we went to investigate. We went to the colony. We... fuck, we saw the cover-up, watched them decompose the bodies and it was some really, really bad shit, Trowa. We'd gotten on-colony by stowing away on a cargo freighter and we joined a work crew and we had -" Duo ran a hand over his mouth, as if he could scrub away the words and the memories. "It was one time and it was the only fucking thing that kept either of us sane and it wasn't right," he added swiftly when he saw Wufei open his mouth, "I know it wasn't right. And I can't say it didn't mean anything because it did but it didn't mean - it didn't mean what you thought it did, Trowa. He never wanted me. It was always you, Trowa - you were always the only one he loved. I was just... I was just someone who wasn't crazy, one night when we both needed to know there was someone else there." It didn't really explain what Trowa had seen in the locker, Heero kissing the palm of Duo's hand, but then again, maybe it did. It wasn't as if Duo would lie to him - not about this, not about Heero. And they had always been close, Heero and Duo and maybe... Duo offered Trowa a sad smile. "If it helps, he never forgave me or himself for it. For ruining what he had with you." It didn't help, actually. It somehow made it that much worse. If everything just been one stupid time, one moment that meant nothing in the grand scheme of things but one moment that had led them to this place, this room, on this colony, planning revenge for Heero's murder because of one time and all of the misunderstandings, the silences, all of the shit since had led to this. "You never said anything to me," Wufei spoke up, his voice a soft reprimand. Duo shrugged and Trowa remembered that once, once Duo and Wufei had been friends too. Once, the two of them had gone out drinking together after days spent at the shooting range while Heero and Trowa went home and spent hours in bed together. "It was wrong, what I did, and I fucked up everything. You stopped trusting me - Trowa stopped - I fucked everything up. It's not like I had a decent explanation or any kind of excuse that meant shit. There was no point in saying anything to you. You wanted to rip my throat out for betraying Trowa, remember?" Wufei frowned, looked away and sighed. "I would have listened." "No," Duo said and he didn't sound quite so apologetic now. "You wouldn't have. You didn't listen when we tried to tell you about the riots and you were too wrapped up in disappointment over what I did to see past it and - no. You wouldn't have." Wufei opened his mouth, ready to argue the point, but then he closed it and Trowa could see that he recognized the truth in Duo's words. Duo looked back to Trowa, his blue eyes searching. "I never wanted to take him away from you, Tro."
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